arrrgggggg
i can't sleep. i think to much when i lie down. i think of things that might happen. i think of things i don't want to happen. i think of things i wish could happen. but nothing is ever gonna happpen. i just think it is so i lose sleep over it. while sitting here i went through all my old post. i cared a lot about this one person. but i am getting away from that fact. i think it is helping my a lot with my everyday life too. i don't worry as much. i don't think about her and i don't..........i don't want to let go. but i have to. i just wish i'd get one chance. just one. but i know thats thats a wish too. one of those things that keeps me awake at night. one of those things that i lose sleep over, the ones that don't happen. maybe one day i'll get my chance but i probably won't. i need to stop thinking about it so i can get some sleep. lol. its an endless cycle. and it sucks.