today wasn't that bad. i played some soccor in rotc, but my team lost cause the former fairy(john micheal) and laird were on the same team. i played goal. and i won't brag because that was the only good save i had. the others weren't so good. and marty doesn't even know how to stop the ball. blah blah blah. that was the rest of school. pt ended up ( Read more... )

so walking down the halls i started to pick up bouncy balls. what a senior prank man. balls everywhere(bouncy that is). all day they were flying around school. that was fucking awesome. after school...........whats that. i went home. fuck rotc today. i took another break. and oh yeah, once more, great idea. i sat down and played my guitar. and just ( Read more... )

yet again. another fuck it entry. i have constant themes. depression, anger, and fuck the world. i love life..................it kills me. lol. so yeah, solving problems is a bitch. cause i black them out. and i expect them to get better but they get worse. but hey. its only a problem to me. so no one needs to know or care. and i don't want any ( Read more... )

i feel incomplete right now. i have a lot of work that needs to be done but nothing can lift my spirits today. i've been sitting here for a while now. just sitting. and my mind keeps wandering. and i go back to why. why i can love. why i can hate. why i can be myself and have such great friends. and with all the time i spend thinking you'd figure i ( Read more... )

heed my advice young ones. never forget your past. it'll help you get through your future. once you've made it through that future it becomes the past you shouldn't forget. so in essence, don't forget who you are. once you do life becomes a smeared painting. nothing is what it was, nothing is familiar.

i'm back. and just sitting here i think i'm goona die of happyness. i'm listening to music, and for the first time in 4 days i don't have to shine boots while doing it. ahhhh it feels so good. the first day(monday) was pretty shitty. my radio, was 2 lbs not 80 lbs. i was disheartened. it was fucking cold. with field jackets and gloves people were ( Read more... )

i'm not gonna be here for a while. not meaning orientation, but in my mind. yeah i'm gonna be here physically, but mentally i'm not. i'm shutting off my mind from the outside, and i need to solve problems of my own. no one can help me through it, and i don't want any help. i am just not going to care for once. its a mental healing thing. i'll be ( Read more... )

everything sucks. and i hate the medal we got for pt cause there wasn't an equal chance for everyone to get it. so fuck you all. orientation should be fun, but i am not in any sort of mood for dealing with shit heads. well i stopped trying and i took steps to ensure that i wouldn't look back. i never really talked to her anyway. i'm going to play a ( Read more... )

i found that only band kids are worth hanging out with anymore. even though we are all different we are all like a family. also they are the only ones commenting. lol. but thats besides the point. the concert, fucking great. everyone did a good job with they're parts. now that i don't have band i don't know what i'm gonna spend my tuesday nights ( Read more... )

well today went smoothly. i did my presentaion in 1st plt. i think i did ok. but i definately had enough info to go around twice. math was nothing again. i finished the backround to my abstract portrait. english we have to make poems. mine was about a place i go to think. but somehow it can be interpreted as a sexual thing. lol. its pretty funny. ( Read more... )