these types of moments are meant to be happy but im not. i dont know if i can take this anymore i dont know what to do. 19 more days and i get to go home. home to see my family and friends who i miss very much. i need them i cant survive without them. they complete me. i dont know what to do i dont know what to do.

as i sit here at work, bored out of my mind, i sit and dwell on things that i cant control. i wish things could be better with  my sister, my two best friends were up here with me, that my dad wasnt such an asshole sometimes, that my mom could be with me, and this feeling of doubt when it comes to myself and howie. things are slowly getting better ( Read more... )

well im here at work right now and i am really happy with where im at in life. i love my job because i get to do my homework and then go and watch tv at home, i love it here at nau, i love my roommates, and i definately love my boyfriend! thank you everyone that has been here for me i love you all and i wish the best of luck to you guys and know ( Read more... )

man this whole relationship thing is wierd but a good wierd. its hard to think that i francesca sherlock can love again. i love him so much he makes me the happiest person in the world. but i wonder how a one person can hold so much power of you. sometimes i feel incomplete when hes not around like theres something missing. i just love having him ( Read more... )

well im finally getting settled in the house and realizing why i moved here. i love it here. yes i miss everyone from home but this is my new home. boys still suck as usual. much love

Flagstaff is getting better and better. I just had a really, really good weekend. I think I like him, but I don't want to because I'm afraid of getting hurt and all that jazz.  Oh well we'll see what happens I mean we are going to be neighbors....maybe not a good idea. Good weekend though is the main point of this.

so yeah one more week and we move in!!!! yay yay yay i am SO exciteddddddddddddddddddddddd

Well its almost been a week since I moved to Flagstaff and I'm starting to wonder if I'm going to be able to make something out of myself here. I mean I love it here and I definately love the people I'm living with, but I kind of feel like I'm over staying my welcome. I kind of feel like I'm walking on egg shells with everyone I know. It's almost ( Read more... )

man oh man i am so depressed and i dont even know why...ive cried myself to sleep for like like the past week or so and im just tired of it...im not happy down here and im tired of people being mad at me for wanting to move away...being mad at me for no reason isnt a good thought to me because i hate it when people are mad at me...i usually am the ( Read more... )

thank you krystal for caring....