sometimes, mostly when i'm hormonal, but sometimes i get really unhappy

Me: My life would be so much easier if I just went home...
I wouldn't have to worry about where I'm going to be, what's going to happen to me.
I know exactly where people like me end up.

Him: Well... Isn't that kind of boring? Having your whole life laid out like that?I stopped to think, perhaps it is. But it's safe. And it's all I know. Then you ( Read more... )

it's been 6 months. and the more days i spend watching you ..from my bed.. from the passenger seat... from across the room... the more i've discovered all the little things that make you you. the good and the bad ( Read more... )

I just... wanna dissipate into nothingness...

at some point, you get caught up in the routine of things. even in my job where i don't necessarily see the same people for the same things over and over, generally, they just all blur into one image of a needy student that has not done the work, and makes me wonder what they teach these kids in high school - because what they HAVEN'T taught, is ( Read more... )

i've been updating frequently lately. not that my life has been particularly interesting in recent weeks which it hasn't... but i guess i've been bored/lonely/in need of an outlet. i'm at work right now, nothing to do until we run a workshop in about 20 minutes so i figured i'd take the time to post.. about nothing. haha. i should really start ( Read more... )

You’re well aware that lately I’ve been struggling.. and just a couple of days ago, another stroke of rotten luck added to what had already become this insurmountable mountain of frustration… I had never felt so ignorant and victimized in my life… I’d rather not go into the details because as I am now feeling some relief, the last thing I need is ( Read more... )

so if you've been following, my life recently had spun out of control and torpedoed into one of the worst life lows i'd ever experienced. but this weekend, things seemed to genuinely turn around ( Read more... )

something pretty awesome happened yesterday. i've mentioned my trouble with registration for classes, but didn't really go into detail. here's the background - i originally intended to take research methods, career and lifestyle development, in addition to externship. research methods because it was the last comp subject, and i wanted to get it ( Read more... )

my heart gets the crap kicked out of it everyday i'm away from home. i feel so many things.. sometimes, i feel so overwhelmed by loneliness.. sometimes i'm terribly bitter and cynical.. other times, i feel extremely grateful for all the blessings i have - and i do have many.. sometimes i'm just okay.. other times, i'm hopeful ( Read more... )