[I always imagined this to be so much harder than it actually is ( Read more... )

There are no perfect endings and no happily ever afters. Amy is having a really hard time with how much I am working and how little I am around. I know it's difficult on her and it's hard on me too. She's tired a lot and so am I ( Read more... )

She kisses differently now. A year apart has made her the most confident lover. Our kisses used to be fumbling, and questioning. We were exploring each other then, and we had no idea what we were doing. Our first time together, she fell off the bed. It was the picture of two straight girls exploring for the first time. We were awkward ( Read more... )

Sometimes I'm so oblivious it kills me. Four days ago Amy bought me a paid account. It's been so long sinc eI had a paid account I can't even remembver what it feels like. It feels luxurious. Yum ( Read more... )

When we first met, I thought I wanted the stable relationship. I suppose part of me was still trying to figure out what I wanted. I was pregnant with my ex husband's baby, still figuring out a divorce when she came along. Like a good nursery rhyme she put me all back together again. And then I left in search of greener pastures. I left behind ( Read more... )

When the phone rang, I never expected to hear her soft, sweet voice come across the line ( Read more... )

Kevin brought back snow for Ryan ( Read more... )

You know there are no chapters in any parenting book I can find on how to deal with your now gay ex-husband's ex-lover. There's not really anyone I can ask about this either, so more than any other time in this whole parenting thing I feel really lost ( Read more... )

I don't think there will ever be just one emotion racing through me when I see him at my door. I know it will always be the warm glow of love, the familiar smile of a prodigal friend, the prick of sadness and loss, the stab of anger, the tug of the DNA we exchanged that melded together to create the voice in the hazy background calling, "Daddy". It ( Read more... )

It's the first Christmas Ryan can really get into. We've been in full on holiday mode for a while now and it feels so great to see it through a kid's eyes again ( Read more... )