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that's all i have to say anymore

Well that hope was short lived. SO i have a doctors appt tomorrow. For my depression well guess what, i have no ride. It's at 10 in the morning and most of the pepole i kno are at school by then or not in the right mind to wake up that fucking early. So i asked to borrow the car for that ride considering my health is kinda dependant on it. No luck ( Read more... )

Well after telling my mom about moving out she quickly asked where are you gonna go and is like how are you gonna get medical stuff. And i answered and was like the thing about you offering to work with my dad was kinda shitty. And she's like So it was a crap thing is moving out gonna solve it? no but i said it'll help she laughed and left adn ( Read more... )

I have a dog ( Read more... )

If ever i used to think things happened by coincidence, i disbelieve it now. Things happen for a reason, coincidences happen too often and are often too weird to simply be on accident. Chances are to high for things to happen and for things to fall into a row as often as they do is just too far fetched ( Read more... )

I'm withering away ( Read more... )

My mind is racing

i'm always tired

I don't care anymore

Life doesn't make sense.. I want to be optimistic I want to be happy I want to feel something other than what i'm fucking feeling But you know life doesn't make sense Everyday has been something new, nothing is easy anymore

i just wanted to feel loved

and appreciated

I'm not asking for pity and i'm not expecting anyone to feel bad that's not what i'm saying in the least. And i'm not feeling bad for myself either. I realized i fucked up and i realize that there is no one to blame for it besides me. I'm past that. It has nothing to do with the charges that i'm being brought up on. it goes a whole lot deeper than ( Read more... )