so it's been about 3 months, and a lot has changed...I'm almost done with my first semester of grad school (crazy) and this program pretty much own's my life...I'm okay with it though, because I love it. I have like 3 papers a week, at least one quiz a week, and read about 3 textbook chapters a week, countless group projects...but I already feel ( Read more... )

Okay... so life keeps going and going, changing and evolving... and sometimes I feel like I can't keep up. So many emotions are circulating inside me that I feel as if any second i could explode...I'm trying to sort all the different emotions, and I feel so overwhelmed that instead of dealing with anything I am just numb to everything ( Read more... )

i;m so over everything right now... I feel like I am being pulled in a thousand directions. I'm tired of my job, but I need the money and I need to stop being a whiney bitch and just get over it. I'm also tired of friends who treat me like crap.  I spent so much time in tallahassee wishing I could hurry up and move home and to what? I left behind ( Read more... )

 okay...so I havent updated since April..so a lot has happened in these past two-ish months. I went to Boston (I have definitely had better vacations) I moved into the other house (LOVE it) and I got a job (sucks, but pays)....I am basically just waiting for August to hurry up and get here so I can start up at school, since I know I'll love that ( Read more... )

well now that graduation has come and gone I am left with a very strange feeling. Yes, moving home was what i have wanted all year...but now that it has actually happened I have my doubts about this whole situation. Don't get me wrong, I love my family...but there is nothing quite like the freedom I had in tallahassee ( Read more... )

ok so, I honestly cannot remember the last time I updated this thing...but basically Its in need. I don't really wanna go back and rehash the last couple months or whatever... but the end result is that today was the last day of undergrad classes for me...How very weird, it doesn't feel like its over... but I have two tests and then BAM, I'm done.  ( Read more... )

 okay, so its been quite a while since I've updated anything... I've been pretty busy... but a lot has changed ( Read more... )

I am terrified. No one has ever had such complete and total control over my emotions before. The slightest thing can upset me, or make me the happiest person in the entire world. When did I let go so completely? When did I start blending my happiness in with your exsistence?....I know you love me, and I have never trusted anyone so much, but that ( Read more... )

you always want what you cannot have. I think thats the law of nature. No one is ever happy, and no matter how happy I am, or how much I have to be thankful for, there is always some sort of balancing factor that steps in every once and a while to bring me crashing back down to earth. I love Alex, I love everything about him, when I am with him I ( Read more... )

so this semester is going to go by pretty quickly (I hope)... it's basically broken down into a series of countdowns, I am going home so much... which is awesome, I just hope my car can handle it... I am going home this coming weekend because of the MLK jr holiday, then I have to go home the first weekend in Feb fto get bloodwork done, then I have ( Read more... )