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Heartbreak
He was everything to me...I thought he was the one. Flattery...he's good at it. Thats all it was for 4 months apparently. The questions I asked were answered appropriately...are u seeing other girls...you must have 3 girlfriends on the go...jokes that served a purpose to find out where we were..."your the only girl"...this was bullshit. July ( Read more... ) -
The Charade Ends
I guess its unreasonable for any man in my life to understand that it is frustrating for me when we argue...when they say hurtful, heartbreaking things, that I can't let that go unless its proven, through actions, that they in fact didnt mean it.
We can add nearing abusive (physically) in the way of shoving me today to the list of things I never ( Read more... ) -
I have to start writing here again! Because I lose real journals waaay too often!
I have a 95, 92, 90, 89, 85 and then for Chemistry, I will end up with maybe a 60 tops after this Final Exam....and Mineralogy the same. Probably a 70 if I get back my final mark. Two really shitty teachers who think they are great but...no, no they aren't ( Read more... ) -
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Is it a bad thing that I sometimes push the people in my life to a breaking point to see what they will do? To see how far they will go? To see how easily they can go from trusted to completely distrusted ( Read more... ) -
Friday...awaiting Saturday my Monday
I went home finally from Dave's hectic household. We fought over dumb things without glorious makeup sex, which causes me further anxiety. I feel like I would rather spend the money in gas commuting to work from my own home, then stay there and be half-assed at my job. They have been bugging me about how many searches I use or how long my calls ( Read more... ) -
Two Years Later
My last entry was about heartbreak. Apparently I've changed a lot since then. I was oh-so-worried about a man I was with for 3 years...not realizing that I was never meant to be with him anyways. I realize now, it was about the comfort. The familiar.
It's also been 1.3 years since I lost one of my best friends. I miss him a lot lately but I stil ( Read more... ) -
Writer's Block: Tricky Questions
If I'm dating this person, obviously something is wrong, either with them, with the relationship or with something I'm doing.
If it's a friend, same thing, but more often than not, it's generally because we haven't talked in a while, or that they are in some sort of trouble and need help. -
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It's been forever, or at least as much as I remember since I've written in here. I'm back to square one, which is not in any way something I am proud of. Back to home, with my parents, and there lifestyles. Back to only feeling like I can handle a mediocre job, but at least it's something. And back to putting school, which I was supposed to attend ( Read more... ) -
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Really good Gardening Books ( Read more... )
