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[brightspot]

There is a large portion of my life during my first marriage and the time immediatly after it that I have almost completely blacked out...I only remember in vignettes, and I can't remember details like when what I'm rememebering happened. I don't know if you've ever experienced that, but it makes a person feel very helpless

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[catscure]

Beth

[paranoidandroid]

~{*~{* Mom! *}~*}~

*I* like a gal who drinks like a fish and dances like a stripper! ;) But it don't mean I should be an arsehole! You can't take the blame for bad men, you rid yourself of them in the end and that's the part that counts.

And don't feel bad about giving out wrong numbers... unless it was the number to someone you knew.. that's bad! ;) After all... a lot of us guys enjoy the chase as much or maybe more than reaching the winning line! Hurdles like wrong numbers are all part of the fun!

Don't be too harsh on yourself... that's all! luv ya too dear

[tweezlebum]

Brightie-girl, I think everyone is stupid in their late teens and twenties. It may even be a law, but don't quote me on that. ;)

You, of all people, know all the stupid shyt *I* did. You know the stupid shyt some of our friends did. You know the stupid shyt that loads of other people did. I still feel guilty about a lot of the things I did, and I sometimes feel physically sick when I think about some of it and imagine what a) the people involved thought of me then, and b) what the people involved think of me now. That's the main reason I've voluntarily lost contact with so many people from my past. They remind me of who I was then, and I feel that I've grown so far from the old Misty that I don't like to be reminded of her. But I don't think I was a bad person then, and I don't think I'm a bad person now. I was expressing my freedom to make choices...some were good, lots were bad. I was exploring my sexuality and questioning my beliefs. I was evaluating my roles as daughter, sister, friend, lover, woman, etc., and I was

[brightspot]

Do you ever need to ask?!??!? There is an open, standing invitation for fishsticks to my house...and fishstick significant others, too. :o) As if I'm not LONGING to see you and wouldn't give my left arm!! Cab you pack Jen in one of your bags???

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[tweezlebum]

rofl! I can try, but I can't guarantee she'd like it. ;)

[brightspot]

{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{giant hugs for all three of ya

[chelseabun]

I went through a similar thing. I feel incredibly stupid for a lot of things I did when I was younger, but the only way I can move on is to make my life better from TODAY. You are a wonderful mother and wife, so I don't think you need to stress about your past too much.

I will give Elanor a hug from you on Saturday. :)

[brightspot]

You read my mind...thank you, Chelsea!!!

I know I've never felt the need to stress about it before, but now it seems so IMPORTANT. Ugh, never mind...this is something I'll crawl out the other side of soon, I know it.