third time lucky hopefully.

stay tuned for lots of whinging and self-pity i suppose.  we're getting foxtel on monday the 21st june and i should have enough er to keep me going until foxtel.

i shall trully miss it. again lol

i can't sleep ( Read more... )

i have sprinkles (very little) but not sprinkle machine. and i'm dumb and can't do it without sprinkle machine.

what a quanandrum.

i think that's why i threw out the sprinkle machine the day i made the sprinkle celibacy decision.

i want a sprinkle machine. not tomorrow when shops are open and i can get one (beacuse in the daylight my celibacy resolve ( Read more... )

after 2 hours of crying, a shower (i'm SO clean these days) and 4 ativans later, i'm finally calm and peaceful.  we've run out of stillnox which is prolly good.

maybe i should go see a doctor and ask for some anxiety things. or something.  anything to make me be half human.  i was in the shower crying and chanting the same pathetic "not agains" i ( Read more... )

aside from the ongoing hot/swearty/cold/cold sweats saga, i think i feel better today ( Read more... )

now i'm distraught because i can't cope with life and people's expectations of me and the perfection issues overwhelm me.  if i wasn't having a nervous breakdown i'd prolly find all this funni ( Read more... )

60 hours into sprinkle celibacy and i'm bawling my eyes out behind my computer screen in my office because no one understands me.

Yup. No comment.

I feel crap.  I think bursting into tears because Allie lost her kitten alerted me to that.  It's been 31 hours since the last tiny bit of sprinkles, and these feelings are not new ( Read more... )

More for today because i'm on round 2 of hating everyone in the office ( Read more... )

I want to scream that I hate my boss and all adults in general because they're stupid and then I want to go home and sprinkle my afternoon.

I can't because that sort of thing doesn't go well with employment.

So I might just summarise that I have issues. Maybe that's what my problem is and maybe that's why I suck at this grown up job thing.

And it ( Read more... )