I feel crap. I think bursting into tears because Allie lost her kitten alerted me to that. It's been 31 hours since the last tiny bit of sprinkles, and these feelings are not new
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haha, i'm a mess. i even had a shower earlier as a 'distraction' and i don't even believe in shower distractions lol. now i'm drowning in my own sweat and waiting for sleepies to kick in and wondering if i should have a glass of wine to help them lol. except i don't know if i can stomach wine.
don't know what he's doing now. i'm guessing he's not in love with uni that he started this month and has gone back to heavy smoking. dad is always really naive and blind about these things, so i assume he wants to talk about how stefan is anti social instead lol
from brother's perspective, my mum is insane and with dad he is forced to live in a small 2 bedroom unit with dad and the cow
it'll get better. last time, it got better in about a week and a half. a week after that i decided that i was bored and got some more. adn then didn't stop getting some more lol the only thing i hate about it is that i become obsessed and stop going out to have it. otherwise it would be just like cycolones - perfection on a stick lol
dear me.
but anyway.
i have goals but need lists. i don't have enough lists but i have no energy to write one. that's how i know it's serious. even when i was failing uni i was still writing lists lol
lose 20kg then i can have some again (in order to put the 20kg back on and start the cycle all over again). i think i'm meant to be getting like, pregnant or something in a few years time - so maybe i could quit then instead? lol
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don't know what he's doing now. i'm guessing he's not in love with uni that he started this month and has gone back to heavy smoking. dad is always really naive and blind about these things, so i assume he wants to talk about how stefan is anti social instead lol
from brother's perspective, my mum is insane and with dad he is forced to live in a small 2 bedroom unit with dad and the cow
i think now i'm just rambling lol
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dear me.
but anyway.
i have goals but need lists. i don't have enough lists but i have no energy to write one. that's how i know it's serious. even when i was failing uni i was still writing lists lol
lose 20kg then i can have some again (in order to put the 20kg back on and start the cycle all over again). i think i'm meant to be getting like, pregnant or something in a few years time - so maybe i could quit then instead? lol
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