What is so bad about this life, that leads someone to kill themselves? Dawson died on saturday, this is hard. It was one thing when my uncle died, he was finally at peace and in no more pain. Dawson on the other hand committed suicide, what the fuck! He and i werent all that close but i feel so depressed by this. He was an amazing person, super fun ( Read more... )

For a while, I thought I was losing my mind. I felt disconnected. I was constantly lost in my thoughts. I would be in the shower, wash my face and then a minute later ask my self as i reached for the face soap "wait didnt I just do this?" There were other little things too. Like trying to put another sleeve on a hot cup at starbucks, or forgetting ( Read more... )

My stomach is in knots, it has been since I started school. I dont know why, a mixture of excitement and terror I guess. My english class is easy, just a ton of reading. Anthropology makes me a little uneasy but just because I havent gotten my books yet. My aerobic step class is the shit, I guess the teacher is a professional dancer/personal ( Read more... )

Since my last update there have been tons of ups and downs. Its amazing what you can go through in a few months. Making new friends, losing friends, growing up...more, all things Ive had happen to me. Turning 21 has been an interesting experience. Im glad to say that I'm over it.I actually went to a bar tonight and exercised my will power. Pure ( Read more... )

Let me start out by saying I am an extremely good actress ( Read more... )

My self esteem has been the lowest its been in years lately.

Im changing that for good because Im done feeling like this.

As happy as I am to be getting my puppy today really sucked. I was at petco looking at the kitties and one looked really familiar, then this black one looked super familiar. It was my cat sully and my moms cat ace. I never thought I would see them again but there they were together staring me in the face. Broke my heart ( Read more... )

Well....March has been pretty good to me so far ( Read more... )

Wednesday January 28th!
10:00 AM
Breakfast @ the antique row cafe on adams

Friday the 30th
5:00 PM
BBQ @ Dads house

After dinner
Experiencing the club/bar night life
Should be interesting
;-)

So let me know if you're coming!

<3

I cant find my drive ( Read more... )