Aug 30, 2009 22:05
My stomach is in knots, it has been since I started school. I dont know why, a mixture of excitement and terror I guess. My english class is easy, just a ton of reading. Anthropology makes me a little uneasy but just because I havent gotten my books yet. My aerobic step class is the shit, I guess the teacher is a professional dancer/personal trainer and worked on so you think you can dance, dancing with the stars and her dance troupe tried out for Americas got talent but didnt make it. Math is eh, I dont know, scary? Its hard for me to focus in that class, two hours of math is too long for me but I think I'll make it through. Other than that, school is awesome. I cut more hours our of my work week so I would have time to do my homework this time around.
My social life doesnt really exist anymore. I see the best friends every once in a while but not as often as I would like to. I'm constantly tired from waking up every other morning at 3:30am for work. Its been a little tough but whatever. Im looking forward to the payoff in the end. I try to stay as positive as possible with everything these days. Its feels better to look at the good side of things than to sit around and dwell on the bad.
I feel like I need to be a little more social. Its so easy for me to lock my self away and submerge my self in school, art, or my own thoughts. I have rediscovered how much I like to be anti social which is good and bad. I dont miss my social butterfly act anymore but I do miss just hanging out with friends and bsing the night away. Im sure Ill find a little group of friends to chill with again eventually. Like i said, right now i dont mind that im anti social. Its easier.
Sleep now, work at 6:30 am :(