The ramblings of a courtney....
For a while, I thought I was losing my mind. I felt disconnected. I was constantly lost in my thoughts. I would be in the shower, wash my face and then a minute later ask my self as i reached for the face soap "wait didnt I just do this?" There were other little things too. Like trying to put another sleeve on a hot cup at starbucks, or forgetting something someone just told me. Walking around in a constant trance is a bit scary. I dont know why my mind decided to all of the sudden pull me away from the real world, but it did. Luckly after talking to ray about how bizzare i felt, I snapped out of it. I feel so clear headed.
Anyways, now that Ive snapped out of this trance, my world is feels right again :) School is going really well, Im still not sure if i want to be a biologist. Ive started to work out and eat healthy again due to a recent increase in my weight. I havent gained too much, but enough to bother me. Im so scared of ever being 185 again. I REFUSE to allow my self get that way. I like taking control of my body and making it the way I want it to be.I really wish more people I knew had gym memberships. Its time for me to get a new job, Im hoping for either MAC or Sephora. I need to have some kind of artsy outlet and I think doing makeup will be perfect for that. Oliver, the new cousin, is due in december...SO excited for that. Hes going to be an amazing baby and I just hope he and my aunt remain healthy until hes born. Im pretty proud of my self for learning to sew, well im still in the process but im making a really cute baby blanket.
All aspects of my life right now are amazing, christmas is around the corner and theres nothing I really want. Im happy to have what I have :)
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Anyways, now that Ive snapped out of this trance, my world is feels right again :) School is going really well, Im still not sure if i want to be a biologist. Ive started to work out and eat healthy again due to a recent increase in my weight. I havent gained too much, but enough to bother me. Im so scared of ever being 185 again. I REFUSE to allow my self get that way. I like taking control of my body and making it the way I want it to be.I really wish more people I knew had gym memberships. Its time for me to get a new job, Im hoping for either MAC or Sephora. I need to have some kind of artsy outlet and I think doing makeup will be perfect for that. Oliver, the new cousin, is due in december...SO excited for that. Hes going to be an amazing baby and I just hope he and my aunt remain healthy until hes born. Im pretty proud of my self for learning to sew, well im still in the process but im making a really cute baby blanket.
All aspects of my life right now are amazing, christmas is around the corner and theres nothing I really want. Im happy to have what I have :)
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