I just looked at my friend's page and nothing is posted. I looked and the last time I wrote an entry was a year ago. I ended up getting fired, well I technically asked if I could resign my position before they fired me. I don't really know if that was any better. Way to boost my confidence in my clinical skills. I felt and still have concerns about ( Read more... )

I have to re orient because I suck so much at my job. I've never even heard of re orientation I mean, you usually get fired when you suck. I suppose it is my communication abilities, I should have figured out how to do everything correctly. I don't know why it is so difficult for me, I mean you only need a high school degree it isn't like this ( Read more... )

Well I'm a bit worried. My dog has been diagnosed with terminal leukemia or something like that and has these tumors all over his body. He looks all bumpy and his throat was swollen incredibly. I worry about how my parents will take it because my mom said that she thought he would pull through and I didn't want her having false hope, she is so.. ( Read more... )

Who am I? Am I no body who are you, are you no body too? I wonder who am I. What I have done. What I have shown I am.. what I have found out about who I am. I learned that there are some people who genuinely like me, but most people seem distant. I feel distant though so, maybe I am just.. perceiving it that way. Not feeling alone when you're with ( Read more... )

Everyone dies. I've never had to deal with death, it was always something that happened, but not to anyone I knew or cared about. I had never come home to a dead body before, to someone I knew or not. I never lost anyone I loved. I had put myself in a bad situation. I did bad things. I justified bad things. And nothing mattered once he died. I know ( Read more... )

It is interesting feeling and thinking this way. Being in my apartment the world is quiet and calm.. but I do not feel as so. I feel more like I'm in an ocean again. My ocean of emotion. It is interesting feeling the currents and influences around me as I just .. float suspended. The ocean is calm but, turbulent, with many different unseen forces ( Read more... )

Well I spent 8 hours on the storrs campus today and worked at a snail's pace. Of course I did take multiple breaks, I had coffee with Jessica and helped my brother get books. So I was only in the library for like 5 hours and zoned out a lot but still it is not an effective use of time. I was just really tired today. I took notes on all the articles ( Read more... )

Goodness I'm exhausted. I had some yummy pork chops at my parent's place. They don't think I'm eating well. I suppose they worry about that. It is strange thinking about people worrying about me, I've always kind of done my own thing with out the parents checking up on me. I've always liked it that way. I suppose in that sense I'm very ( Read more... )

I finally am watching my soaps and movies, I think there were times during the semester when I felt like.. I haven't watched anything in so long.. I just want to watch a tv show.. well no I just wanted to sleep :-p Anyways I found this episode really interesting because I liked to apply it all psychoanalytically, like I'm a psychologist. It is fun ( Read more... )

Well the festivaties are drawing to a close. I managed to sleep in til Noon just in time to miss all the work. I've been so lazy, I guess I generally am holidays or something. I really am a Princess. Sally came up stairs and floped on me while I was in bed and said with a giggle that its ok to wake up, all the work was almost done. I really do love ( Read more... )