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[prismatism]

 has anyone else had experience with your parents just not believing there's anything wrong?

i'm undiagnosed, but i swear to god if it turns out i'm not bipolar i'll either die of shock, or kill myself, because it'd mean i'm an absolute mess of a person for absolutely no reason and there is no hope of ever being a fully operational human being.
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[bellasmommy]

You need to see a doctor and get officially diagnosed, sweetie. And seriously, if it turns out you're NOT bipolar, thank your lucky stars that you're not. It's not fun, as you can imagine.

Go get professional help, with or without your parents' blessing. It's the first step toward being okay.

[bellasmommy]

P.S. Also, and I hate to say this, I took a peek at your profile, and some of your communities concern me. Substance abuse does NOT help with mental illness, no matter how high it gets you, you will continually use more to combat against the lows. Again, please seek professional help with or without your parents' blessing. Speak to a counselor at school or your general family doctor.

[prismatism]

thank you.
i don't want to be bipolar... the thought of a diagnosis scares me. but i do want to find out what's wrong and start fixing it.
thanks for being concerned, i really appreciate it. i'm actually not using anything anymore... i used to, but never really abused anything. i relate to people who do, though.
i think i'll be able to get help soon. i don't think it can be ignored anymore.
<3

[mellybinthesea]

It sounds like you're really struggling. I too have had difficulty getting my parents to understand the reality of my illness, but the reality is its not about them, it's about me and I have to seek help. It sounds like you're still living at home/under 18 so I imagine it seems difficult to seek help outside of your parents, but most counties have public mental health facilities that can be accessed at little to no cost without your parents knowledge, also going to your general practitioner and talking to him/her about it can get you a referal to a psychiatrist. The sooner you address the issue the better. I was diagnosed at the age of 20 after many years of feeling like something was really, really wrong with me. I was diagnosed after trying to committ suicide and i don't recommend waiting to seek help until you can't take it anymore. This illness isn't easy, but it is managible with help.

Stay strong.

[prismatism]

thank you... it really helps to know that it can get better, even a little. you're right that this is about me, it's my problem and i'm going to do everything i can on my own to deal with it... <3

[sleepysparkles]

Parents can be a pain like that. I'm not sure what is it, but it seems that they can have all of these things staring them in the face and yet not want to admit to themselves that maybe something IS really wrong and it's not just a phase that all teens go through

[held_enthrall]

My parents only understood to late. And really so did i. The year before my first major manic episode i took anything and everything I could get my hands on to make the pain go away. My parents kept telling me there was nothing wrong with me, so I kept thinking there was nothing wrong with me. That just made it worse. It turned into this monster of me thinking that there was nothing wrong, I just wasnt doing the right thing to solve it.

Then I woke up in the icu with tubes down my nose and throat. I almost died of an overdose. I spent a week in the psych ward. Dont let yourself get any worse. Try going to an emergency room and saying that you feel you are a danger to yourself or others. I dont think age matters. They should put you in for 72 hours and you should be able to see someone.

Never let anyone tell you there is nothing wrong with you. Even if it isnt bipolar find out what it is now. If your mom doesnt want to help you (or cant help you) turn to your friends.

[just_keep_still]

ME TOO. ME TOO