Comments | bent_brokenrose: I'm breaking down, I'm burning out and it's not funny like on television

bent_brokenrose

I'm breaking down, I'm burning out and it's not funny like on television

Jun 16, 2008 12:57

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Comments 9

dreximgirl June 16 2008, 12:56:26 UTC

Print it out and let them read it?

bent_brokenrose June 16 2008, 14:59:10 UTC

I've tried that with docters before, I can never pluck up the courage to show them and it never seemed the right time to interrupt thier talking and show them. I will try and bring it up to Dr Hore tonight. See what he says. I just wanna be 'Dans' for a bit :-s Think I'm being rash?

Dans

ps yay for your icon - made me smile

dreximgirl June 16 2008, 18:00:51 UTC

Depends what you mean by feeling like 'Dans' I guess and how risky it's gonna be. You don't really wanna ruin how far you have come by doing something just to feel like a 'Dans' you may not be anymore. If that makes sense

Lis xx

bent_brokenrose June 16 2008, 20:36:40 UTC

I know, don't want to feel like Dans, wanna be 'just Dans' for a bit. Grrr I wrote out a long reply and it disappeared into the net ( ... )

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bent_brokenrose June 16 2008, 20:42:33 UTC

Yeah in the end I talked to Dr Hore about it all. Which was hard:

Him: How are you?
Me: Confused
Him: No you're not confused, confused means you don't know where you are and think you are in Buckingham Palace, start again

Him: How are feeling?
Me: I thought I was doing well but -
Him: No you were doing well it says so here *points at notes*
Me: Well I'm not 100% sure I was (avoiding using word confused)
Him: No you were ...

I did in the end manage to get several words in. He was wanting to put me on antidepressants but we are holding off to see if I can come off of jab for a bit - see reply to lis

See I'm not looking to feel like me again. I'm looking to find out what I feel like without drugs. It may be better than I did, it may be the same, it will probably be worse. But I want to know. I feel like there is another layer of me that is hidden and supressed. I wanna find out what it is, but I don't expect it to be cute and fuffy.

Dans

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bent_brokenrose June 17 2008, 07:57:32 UTC

Slap you down? Me? Nah ( ... )

Thread 8

HUGZ ROSE!!! anonymous June 23 2008, 21:22:40 UTC

Oh love - want me to come beat some sense into this dr until he actually posesses the ability to HEAR you????
Please people remember that yes depression makes it hard to do what the medical profession sayus and see "rationally" BUT you also all know there are times when you do - in fact you do a LOT of the time.
I do think if you aren't going to change drs please print this lot of convs and give it to him - explain that you find it so hard to speak to someone who genuinely can't listen without TELLING you how you are feeling.... he can't fix you with pill on top of pill on top of pill.
He is labelling you without even knowing you enough to label you.
what I would like to do to anyone in the psychiatric profession who has lost the ability to see his patients as human beings who deserve care and not his little peple he instructs and controls by proxy - go on - give me ten minutes with him..... ;)