I'm breaking down, I'm burning out and it's not funny like on television

[bent_brokenrose]

 *sigh

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Yeah in the end I talked to Dr Hore about it all. Which was hard:

Him: How are you?
Me: Confused
Him: No you're not confused, confused means you don't know where you are and think you are in Buckingham Palace, start again

Him: How are feeling?
Me: I thought I was doing well but -
Him: No you were doing well it says so here *points at notes*
Me: Well I'm not 100% sure I was (avoiding using word confused)
Him: No you were ...

I did in the end manage to get several words in. He was wanting to put me on antidepressants but we are holding off to see if I can come off of jab for a bit - see reply to lis

See I'm not looking to feel like me again. I'm looking to find out what I feel like without drugs. It may be better than I did, it may be the same, it will probably be worse. But I want to know. I feel like there is another layer of me that is hidden and supressed. I wanna find out what it is, but I don't expect it to be cute and fuffy.

Dans

[bent_brokenrose]

Slap you down? Me? Nah

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it seems to have eased off a lil so it may be the changing of washing powders or it may the the meds dr gave me. I've still got the skin infection i had ages ago so hes given me a new course of antifungals, also gave me a steroid cream for the rash, then cos the dentist buggared my tooth she gave me antibiotics to kill anything that got in it until she re-does it. So between them and the powder something may be working lol.

Glad the clean slate analogy worked :-)

Dans

[bent_brokenrose]

it might have been who you are and think you're in Buckingham Palace.

I dunno, was getting fustrated at him.

Who are you btw?

Dans