BSG Fic - Reparation, 5/?

[becisvolatile]

Title: Reparation
Author: becisvolatile
Part: 5/?
Rating: NC-17
Pairings/Characters: Lee/Kara, Bill, Roslin, Helo, Sharon, Cottle, Anders, Dee, Leoben.
Word Count: 3661
Category: Novella
Genre: Romance, Angst, Action with Romance, PWP, Drama
Archiving: The Fallout Shelter, Apollo/Starbuck Fan Fic, Beyond Insane all others please ask
Warnings: Language,

Comments

[cherylad]

Well! You gotta love retribution that is swift, sure and no-frakkin'-kidding. Lee wanted to "end it with this thing" by having her clean up the mess (both literal and figurative) - well, Baby. You asked for it, you got it

[becisvolatile]

Some bits I loved, cuz all evidence to the contrary, I really am a vengeful bitch when pushed....

You know what the lamest thing is? After this I planned on having Kara be all hell-fire and whoa. And she was totally fucking subdued. I mean I kept poking her until she did something… but I almost felt as if she’d been defeated and even *I* was scared.

Kara has always walked away because she felt she was unworthy. That'd she hurt someone else eventually, so rip off the bandage now.

Your right, and until this point that’s been her standard MO… but now I think she’s walking - running - because for once that bad thing *did* happen before she could bolt.

THAT piece of work is the first time I've ever seen Kara put the blame, or the *responsibility* squarely where it belonged.You think? Because that section is largely from Lee’s perspective and I sort of have to wonder if it isn’t Lee’s own assessment of his actions

[cherylad]

Hmm.. if she felt defeated to you, that is scary.. but, I thought she was more in shock. Trying to figure out is she human or cylon? And who the hell is inhabiting Lee's body and what the frak just happened?!

Seriously though.. see, I think the balled up, semen soaked tank in the lectern where Lee will find it and GET it .. was just perfect.. Okay.. so it is a tad bit passive-aggressive .. but I just loved it for the slap it will be.

I know you were giving us a Lee-eyed-view .. but I thought the way you had her just shake her head once and turn a walk away was a VERY sharp slap of - Yes, Lee...THAT is the mistake I meant and THIS is that time.

I just love this!!!!

[becisvolatile]

THAT is the mistake I meant and THIS is that time.

When you put it like that I think yeah, that's it.

Kara here I think is more like a little kid, pulling a dogs tail again and again and now she's finally been bitten and there's that moment where her world just doesn't line up because it was never meant to bite back.

one more thing.....

[cherylad]

I forget this tidbit....

“Don’t think that you can kill love, Kara. It doesn’t work like that.”

This also applies to Lee & Kara. They keep making a run at it --- out of fear, guilt, lack-of-self ... but while you can bury it, a love like buries itself in the marrow of your bones and simply can't be irradicated. You just have to learn to live with it as a bone-chilling ache or really really embrace it.

Re: one more thing.....

[becisvolatile]

You know, I don't really believe love is a fluffy thing. It's really like this massively traumatic experience that you can let just fill you up, or fight and be completely leveled by it.

Unfortunately, we're all aware that that's all Kara knows how to do.

Fight until she can't.

Re: one more thing.....

[cherylad]

I sometimes wish love was fluffy.. but that not been my life experience!

hmmm.. now.. Bec... I know you fix what you break.. but, that line sentence has me nervous.....

part 1

[latteaddict]

“An… asset… was quarantined from the Fleet by Cylon Raiders. We couldn’t afford to lose it.”

I love this scenario. It’s so clever and twisty. And we’ve seen Human Cylons board Galactica for ‘discussions’ before, so this situation is based solidly in canon - sweet!

The lectern, where she’d stuffed Lee’s used tank - he was in for a reminder the next time he took a briefing

ouch! Nice one!

Leoben, Sam… all the men that had left marks had never left her. The pain had come from the clinging, from how tightly they had held her. But being abandoned? That was a new twist and Kara was fast deciding that she didn’t like it.

Great insight. And I wonder if it will occur to her that maybe Lee didn’t like being abandoned on New Caprica? Though it’s not like she got off him mid-frak and left.

She was a walking ghost. She was dead. To Lee, Kara Thrace was dead. Why had it taken her so long to realize it? Maybe he’d done her a favor.

Oh Kara. Only she would think this way *sniffles*

And there he stood, his nostrils flaring gently as he caught

Re: part 1

[becisvolatile]

And I wonder if it will occur to her that maybe Lee didn’t like being abandoned on New Caprica?

You know, I don’t think she sees it as abandonment so much as saving him from herself. Part of me thinks she actually believed (and maybe even was) doing the right thing by leaving him and burning their bridges.

I’ve never seen the poem used this way in fic.

I have this complete obsession with that poem. I mean I have a master copy on which I’ve written NOTES. It’s so brief and simple but I think there’s just so much *stuff* packed into it that I’ll never fully get it.

Assuming Leoben is telling the truth, the Cylons had Kara and pumped her for info, but she truly didn’t remember.

*whistles*

And the five are higher models!!!

Yup. And they too have a plan.

part 2

[latteaddict]

“I bet. Funny, I love talking about those months. How you tasted as you killed me. How you felt. The look in your eyes that third night when you realized you were finally going to have to succumb to sleep. Kara Thrace, defeated by a nap. I remember how you looked at our baby.”

gawd, Leoben strikes true every time he speaks to her. You bring up a painful point. Imagine the fear Kara was experiencing when she was first captured. I bet she really did stay awake until she couldn’t take it anymore. And who knows what Leoben did to her while she slept :(

“Who are the five?”

“You know.”

Oooh!

He smiled, she was trying to catch him with his own words. He kissed below her ear as he spoke, “Human to the point of being hyper human. No machine could forge you. We just patched what couldn’t be salvaged. Things have changed, but you haven’t.”I loved the entire exchange between Kara and Leoben. You got their intimate creepy dynamic spot on. And I’m excited by Leoben’s confirmation at what you’ve hinted at earlier in the story. That Kara’s still

Re: part 2

[becisvolatile]

Leoben strikes true every time he speaks to her.This is what amazes me about his character. I remember reading that the Cylons are supposedly based on archetypes. Leoben is the warmonger and misinformant. But that whole Kacey thing aside, when has he ever been truly deceitful to Kara? I think in his dealings with her he goes against not only the other Cylons, but against his very own make-up. I kind of wanted him to be more than just a tool for exposition and while I can’t deny that that is a large part of what he’s doing, I have to say that I really think exposition is a major catalyst in and of itself. Kara isn’t one for introspection and Leoben forces that one her. All these things about her own destiny that she’s mocked are going to come out, and these questions she’s afraid to ask are going to be answered. More than just filling in the gaps of her blackout… this information is going to move her into the next stages of her “destiny”. Which makes me think that Leoben’s disappointment at his own insignificance in the scheme of

Re: part 2

[latteaddict]

But that whole Kacey thing aside, when has he ever been truly deceitful to Kara?

It's fascinating, isn't it? Leoben is so completely focused on Kara at all times. His obsession probably outweighs Lee's in the long run.

Well I don’t really think any of those are entirely acceptable for Lee… but the thought that he’d lost Kara not because of some grand Cylon scheme but his own lack of faith? I’m going to go with that one. Because Lee lurves his angst.

Oh yeah, me too. Death or the Cylons gives him somewhere to place the blame. His own lack of faith sits squarely on his shoulders.

Seriously? Your comments make me giddy and it’s quite odd when I get fangirly over a freaking comment, isn’t it? Still, I have to thank you so much for indulging me and giving me your thoughts.

Hee, we can form a mutual admiration society *ha ha*

I've spotted the new chapter am I'm so excited that I'm forcing myself to get everything done that I need to get done, so I can sit down and wallow in the next chapter without any interruptions *dances*

[stardust_20]

Still lovin' it. I'm not coherent enough to give proper FB (frak, I can't even spell coherent without 6 tries) but I'm not sure I can tell you how much I love all the undertones to this fic. You've got Kara, Leoben and Lee all perfected crafted in this story, their intents, their motives, their loves and what makes them tick. And I can't frakkin' type - I have to go back and retype every single word in order not to have typos - I'm a perfectionist so I hate typos. :)

I like this - all the men that had left marks had never left her. The pain had come from the clinging, from how tightly they had held her. But being abandoned? That was a new twist and Kara was fast deciding that she didn’t like it. Wonderful insight into her relationships. She always leaves first. She always hurts them. They cling, she tosses them away. Finally she's getting some of her own medicine back and deciding she doesn't like it.

This was the best part of all for me - the truest observation of all.

Love. He knew Kara. Knew the woman that had faltered

[becisvolatile]

(frak, I can't even spell coherent without 6 tries)

Man, even when I am with it I can't spell. I'd die without me spell check and auto correct.

Thanks so much for your comment, I love all feedback!