I am glad that this time of year is here. I think that there are a lot of us that need that little bit of holiday cheer. I know that in a way I was dreading the holidays for my own personal reason and nothing to do with the fact that I am missing a really good friend. Although that has added to the sorrow I believe. I am usually so excited about ( Read more... )

I have postponed writing in here for the past week becuase I guess I have been hoping that everything that happened in the last week would end up being a bad bad dream. With the reality now that it is not I have decided that maybe writing down my thoughts are the only way to stop going over it again and again in my mind. I know that there is ( Read more... )

Well so the past two days have basically been wasted away because I have a lack of motivation to do anything at this point.  I was home for a few days and I thought that would help charge my batteries and get me back in the swing of things again but I still have nothing not even an ounce of motivation.  i have not felt this way the whole time that ( Read more... )

Ok so yeah its been a while since I have updated but i have been so busy that I have not had the time.  Things are good for me in all aspects of life.  I know that my education is first for me at this point and everything else will fall into place.  And you know it is all falling into place actually.  It seems like distance really is the best thing ( Read more... )

Ok so I have been really busy and have not been able to update but I have talked to most of you so you know whats going on.  I have been so busy because of the change of major to CDS and it does take a lot of my time. I have joined the sorority Epislon Sigma Alpha and that will also keep me quite busy from what I see. I have had very little contact ( Read more... )

Ok so last week was pretty good and it was pretty easy to get use to the idea of being back here and all. I am enjoying my time here and I do believe that it was a really good decision that I made.  There have been a few times that it has  been hard to be here thinking about all the things that I left at home but then I stop and think about all ( Read more... )

Well its been a while since I have updated. Things have been up and down lately but they are looking up for now!  I had a good last week at the state. It was a fun job and I would gladly do it again if given the chance. I went to the fair a few times and it was good. The last saturday I was home was a little sad knowing that was the last time I was ( Read more... )

Why is it that people feel that it is easier to lie to someone than to just tell that person the truth about how they feel or what they dont want to do.  I mean in the end everyone ends up finding out about what is happening. It makes no sense to lie about what is going on because you have to just keep lying and you have to keep all your stories ( Read more... )

Well the weekend was fun and it was relaxing but now we are back in the reality of things where everything just waits for you to come home. Dont you ever wish that you could leave for a few days and when you got back home you would have no problems to tend to. I have often wished that and you know it never really comes true. As much as you want ( Read more... )

It was a better day with less tears and less thoughts about what happened and  why is this how things are going to be.  I spent the day going to the doctor and then I ran a few errands after that. I was suppose to work but took off because I needed to get a few things done today. It really was a successful day. I even managed to figure out how to ( Read more... )