The Life of a Princess is Not Always the Greatest!
Well so the past two days have basically been wasted away because I have a lack of motivation to do anything at this point. I was home for a few days and I thought that would help charge my batteries and get me back in the swing of things again but I still have nothing not even an ounce of motivation. i have not felt this way the whole time that I have been back at school. Im not sure if its the fact that I have all this stuff coming up and I know that or if I am just being lazy! I wish that I could wake up in the morning and know that I am going to want to get something done! I know that I will do something tomorrow because I have a few test coming up but at this point I am just doing it becuase I have to not because I am actually wanting to do it. It is midterm and I know that I am doing fine in school and that there is not much time left for the semester before we have a few weeks off but I cant be in this slump forever. I hope that after homecoming which is this weekend I will be ready to start rolling again.
As for everything else in life it has been a little crazy around here. I have a friend who went through a really bad break up last week and that was hard to watch her go through that. She did the right thing and he jsut could not handle that and I feel really bad for her at this point. Anytime that you go through something like that it is hard. My roommate loss a few members of her family in a tragic car accident so that was a bad week also. So sleep around here has been a little lack there of. Maybe that has to do with my no motivation.
In my own little crazy world, Jeremy and I have decide to try and talk things out and see if we can fix what went wrong in our relationship. I want to fix it Im just not sure if he can actually handle me being here for another 3 semesters. It would be a big trust thing and Im not so sure that we are quite there yet. It will be a slow process regardless of what happens at this point. The big issue is that I know that there will be no changing his mom and that will be hard to live with. Well its like I told him this is about him and I not our families so hopefully he listened to that. Other than that nothing else is going on at this point.