I am 75% sure i will be taking a job at Ft Campbell KY... Nashville TN. I have such mixed emotions about all this. My best friend there is going to Afghanistan taking one of 2 slots available... i applied to go with him and missed out by 2 days. So im filling his position in TN. For my friends that live in TN, can you email me ur digitz? ( Read more... )

You always say "how could you" and "you couldnt love me, you wouldnt act that way." Your absolutely wrong. I go throught times like what im experienceing right now often, and i do it in dead silence. I want to crawl out of my skin and leave this life for my body to deal with, when the pain is over i'll have my spirit return. But i cant do that ( Read more... )

I finally talked to my baby again today. I feel disgusting and horrible. He, in true Christian fashion, is willing to forgive me and try again and I just feel that's unhealthy. Not so much because he is so hard working at relationship but because I done want to keep reliving my mistakes after this. I have failed at this relationship, I fucked ( Read more... )

SteveO and I just broke up. (again)and it always feels like the last time, only this time he said it was the last time. I am now admittedly no ready and i am a Cheater. I don't want props for admitting this, its just something i have to get off my chest. I have in my very recent history (4 years) have been unable to put off opportunities ive had to ( Read more... )

Relationships are so rough when the other doesnt recognize your sacrifices but wants you to see theirs. It makes it even harder when they have that either "best friend" or other sort of advocate telling them that they are right. It sucks, im more mature and experienced then the both of them and i only have steveo's best interest in mind, yet i ( Read more... )

what the fuck!??!?!?

Went to a friend's xmass party last night with Squares. Had a good time =) Meet some pretty fun people, Dillon, his best friend Damon, and his soon to be girl friend Amanda. She was straight out of the movie Mean Girls. All straight by the way... and now shes our new girl friend =).

Whorlando is SOOO Fetch!

SteveO is in his CPR/First Aid for the prof rescuer class (yaay) finally slightly on his way to his dreams. Meanwhile im still in Neutral revving my engine, waisting gas, over heating my engine, and rolling backwards waiting for a traffic light on a huge hill and my clutch is gone... im fucked =) So maybe i can hold out long enough (or the ( Read more... )

...guess not (last post)

Not going to Nashville, cant afford it. =P guys... im dieing here, i need a better paying job.

help!

Torn.

On to other things

I think i may drive to Nashville for my vacation. Starts Evening of Nov 23rd, through evening of the 30th. Anyone wanna put me up??

J