* Charlotte out-lasted me last night so I finally swaddled her and put her in the swing.  I heard the swing stop just as I was falling asleep so I figured I would let her sleep there until she woke up.  She woke up at 4:30 this morning!  I had nearly five solid hours of sleep, then two hours of nursing/napping in bed before I got up.  I feel rested ( Read more... )

Out of boredom and necessity I started working on Julia's scrapbook tonight, hoping to get it caught up before this baby is born.  I am now up to the week of Abby's birth last year, planning to scrapbook the family pictures we took at the park just days before Abby was born.  We were all sooo happy, my feet were very swollen, and we had no idea ( Read more... )

Almost every day this past summer, I went out to Abby's grave.  It's where I feel the closest to her, I guess because her body is there in the ground.  I weeded around her grave, planted and watered flowers and grass, brought seasonal decorations, and we designed a beautiful headstone.  Now that it's winter I'm not out there as often and I really ( Read more... )

The bright blue sky, the white sparkly snow and bright sun are almost blinding but beautiful.  I had a nice nap after lunch, and now I've sent Kim and Julia out to play and enjoy the weather while it's nice.  I'm feeling this baby's presence more and more every day, even feeling little movements that I'm not sure are the baby or my supper ;-)  They ( Read more... )

Fridays used to be the day that I couldn't stop thinking about Abby.  She was born late on a Friday night and died early in the morning so my mind would be constantly remembering my labour with her, her birth, her short life, and her death.

Today, I got through most of the day without realizing that it was Friday, that it was exactly 5 months and 1 ( Read more... )

I heard it raining during the night, which means extremely icy road conditions :-(  When I woke up this morning, this is what we were faced with


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