Today I know I'm nothing. I can't stop feeling like this is my own fault. I have a plan. I'm going to attempt suicide again. I'm going to get a big bottle of sleeping pills, two plastic bags, duct tape, and handcuffs. I'm going to take the bottle of pills, tape the bags over my head, tie my hands up, fall asleep, and suffocate. I know I'm ( Read more... )

I just want to leave all of this behind. I need to move on. Get over it all. I will. I know I can do this. My priority is forget about certain people and events that are too painful to think of. I know I'm not significant to anyone. I'm very unwanted and mistreated. Well, forget them. They'll regret it one day. I'm so sad tonight. I wish I knew how ( Read more... )

 Dear God,

If you're there, could you please help me. I only want to die. It's all I ask. Please help. Thank you.

Sincerely,
Brittany

 I hate it. I hate her. I fucking hate it all. I just want to end my life. I just wish I were dead. I can't take it out on her so I take it out on myself. I cut myself to watch myself bleed. It hurts. My heart hurts so bad. I can't take it all anymore. I just wish I had the strength to end my own life. I don't know what else to do. I'm in so much ( Read more... )

Ugh. I hate feeling this way. My heart hurts so bad. I feel so alone. I feel like I'm stuck standing still. I have no one to talk to. No one wants to hear it anymore, but I can't fight this feeling anymore. I just wish I could die. I just wish I could fall asleep and never wake again. I wish I dream all night and all day. I wish I could get better ( Read more... )

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It's 11 o'clock here and I'm all alone
You're somewhere on the shores 
And far away from me
And the distance is getting to me
But you left long before the seas

There's no one knocking on my door
My phone doesn't rings
There's no one at my door
I'm lost within these four walls
You aren't here for me

I try to talk to you
You're somewhere else completely
I try to ( Read more... )

So I haven't written anything here in awhile. Things have been pretty rough the last few weeks or couple of months. Nothing worth doing is ever easy? I just wish it wasn't all so damn hard. Relationships are so painful. I definitely don't want to do them again for awhile. I rather just date around. I don't want to swear off guys, but I know I can't ( Read more... )

 I feel a little lost today. I'm just feeling consumed with these feelings of woe. I guess maybe the wounds from last year are still hurting me. I was in the hospital last year at this time. I kept begging to be let out. My mom put me there. It was the worst day of my life. It makes me tear up to think about it. I need to get over it and stop ( Read more... )

I'M BORED! I'M BORED! I'M BORED! IT'S BORING!!!!!!!!!! And my tummy hurts but I'm in good spirits which is almost a miracle.

Hopefully, I will be making a better background soon. I have a new favorite artist. She's a beast at photography and manips.

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