A dog has been barking nonstop for over an hour. I've gotten used to it by now. My ears are still bleeding, though ( Read more... )

Today I had a wake up call. I had a meltdown this morning. I'm a mess and it's hard having little to no support. I felt so alone, so miserable. I wanted to just give up. Then my mom called and told me that her friend's husband attempted suicide and is going off life support this saturday. He has two kids, one of whom broke down in the hospital, ( Read more... )

The snow is melting and it feels good. Minus the apparent snowstorm that's coming, I'm excited that the sidewalks are not life-threatening and the weather is getting warmer. I look forward to start running once more.

So a few friends of mine and myself are trying to sublet an apartment in nyc for this summer. It'd be GREAT if I could find an internship there and/or take a class or two at a nearby community college AND/OR find a decent job if the paid internship falls through. I could work at my mom's school in Harlem but I figure that if I want to be serious ( Read more... )

It appears as though the more and more days that I'm alive, the less and less it's apparent that I have an actual future ahead of me. How on earth did I make it this far?

I am not known for being a big gambler. But if I was, I'd bet my next 10 paychecks that Monday will be a disaster.

Why do I have so many douche baggy teachers?

I hate the phrase "It is what it Is." My mom's said that to me several times, and each moment I hear that, I find myself even more disheartened than before. So my family's a mess, deal with it. Blah. That's not good enough for me ( Read more... )

All-nighters suck.

I leave for California tomorrow and I don't know how on earth I'm going to be able to finish packing and even get some sleep tonight. I'm uber excited/scared/nervous as all fuck about all this (not to mention waiting to hear back from MassArt... God help me on that one, too). I went and got a bathing suit with Patty today and I have to say, it's ( Read more... )