u took my voice ( Read more... )

 i dont write on here much mostly because im not very good at the whole "feelings" thing. but if you're reading my journal i suppose its because you know me in which you already know this ( Read more... )

Do you cry when you don't get what you want ( Read more... )

i can myself slipping... slipping into my old ways. no one can stop me. i do not wish to be near anyone. nor do i wish to be alone. i feel the world weighing down on me as i have many times before. there is nothing i can do to stop it. nor do i wish to try. just let me crumble under the weight. allow me to fall and disappear ( Read more... )

he will come. and my whole world will focus entirely on him. and with that... my soul will feel a great pain. because i know its time like those when he is as important as her. i do not wish to replace her. not with him nor with anyone. so why does this happen? how could i have ( Read more... )

if u died right now... would feel fulfilled? would have done everything you wanted to? or would there be something missing? me... id feel like theres something missing. idk what it is but there is something. we never know when we are going to die but we do know that it'll happen at some point. some times we forget that "some point" could be soon. i ( Read more... )

so i got my test results from easter seals. its alot of blah blah blah and other than that it suggests i go to therapy lol. funny how things turn out sometimes.  says i have a reading disorder, mood disorder, and borderline personality disorder. so apparently im just full of disorders. oh and it also says that they suspect i have an eating disorder ( Read more... )

so i started seeing a therapist. yeah i know its weird considering my whole "i hate shrinks" thing. today was the second time i saw him and surprisingly enough... i actually like him. i dont think he quite understands the connection i had with shadow but i cant blame him for that. not many people understand it anyways. hes going to talk to my ( Read more... )

after many conversations its finally happened. he has decided what he wants and what he likes. to be dominant. just what i need and like. many ppl dont know this about me but i am submissive by nature. im sure some of you might have noticed that when told to do something by a guy... i tend to do it. a buddy of mine noticed that a long time ago ( Read more... )

so i went saw the shrink today. although i don't have a set-in opinion of him, he seems very different from your standard shrink.  when i told him about roach he asked me if i want to make us one person or if i want to keep us separate. he seemed perfectly content with my wish to keep us. we talked about a few things and he told me his opinion what ( Read more... )