The hard part comes with knowing that as we grow up, we learn that even the ONE person that wasnt supposed to EVER let you down probably will. You will have your heart broken very probably more than once and it gets harder each time. Youll break hearts too, so remember how it felt when yours was broken. Youll fight with your best friend. More than ( Read more... )

well im feeling alright now..like im back to me. today i ran a cable through to the other side of the house to have a tv in the game room with a nice system attached. Mom and Tom are still here and theyre not planning on leaving until wednesday, so I at least have some company for a bit. Although they make everything difficult so its kind of give ( Read more... )

Well i went for a run..and i think i figured a few things out about a few things as well. Plus I feel about 30,000 times better. Ya know how you feel if you for some reason dont take a shower for like 3 days-like you have this like film all over your body and face, and you really feel dirty and like you need a shower? And then you take a shower and ( Read more... )

i just wish everybody and everything would slow down and take a breath...kind of calm down a little. everything is so high strung and nervous and stressful. im sure it will get better. just give it a chance to. i hate being single. its lonely. but i suppose its my own fault. maybe i should just be single for a while or something. i think i need to ( Read more... )

sometimes i just sit back and watch whats going on around me and most of the time its refreshingly amusing to see everyone scurrying around worrying about everything. it usually allows me to take at least a moment to relax and not worry about the things i worry about. But lately, things just keep happening and it wont seem to slow up for a minute ( Read more... )

well im feeling better. no its true-i promise..i dont really know why-lol-but i do. im in a great mood. my dad and i have been playing some pool and were not fighting for once...actually having a pretty good time. im glad i didnt go to the beta house just to get drunk once again. i keep thinking about the cardiac patient i had the other day-she ( Read more... )

*sigh* it kind of seems right now that i cant win for trying by anyone. Im seriously and literally thinking about moving out to california to work after i get my paramedic certification. Ive been kind of thinkin about that off and on since high school and im honestly considering it. Maybe i just need a vacation...or maybe just to see my family for ( Read more... )

well here i am-its 5:11 in the morning and i have to get up in 3 hours to go to class. ugh. its gonna be a long day ( Read more... )

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So apparently im not even a friend anymore. I guess i was wrong about everything. If you want me to give up so bad..fine..you got it. I give up. Shit i dont know what to do anymore. Maybe i should just give it up and realize that shes never going to come back to me. Thats what everyone else keeps telling me anyway. Its just that I see something in ( Read more... )