bored..
sometimes i just sit back and watch whats going on around me and most of the time its refreshingly amusing to see everyone scurrying around worrying about everything. it usually allows me to take at least a moment to relax and not worry about the things i worry about. But lately, things just keep happening and it wont seem to slow up for a minute to let me get my breath.. The variety show went very well on sat in my opinion and i enjoyed it very much. I just wish that i could have been in it. But as it was, i was missing my great grandmothers funeral to be there. Thats not the only reason, but it was a big one simply because i wasnt in practice pretty much all last week and i felt the need to be there. Then the choir party was fun. I got to hang out with friends and played some beer pong. Although it got a little stressful at one point. I guess anna got really upset because i was there or something and started telling everyone who was talking to her that she hated me? I dont know but i was pretty worried about her when i saw her crying. But i also dont want people to start thinking im some horrible person. Like pretty much everyone she was talking to was giving me these like go to hell looks. Honestly i feel like if anyone should be hurt or upset in this situation, it should be me. And everyone ive talked to about it agrees with me. I dunno..i just dont want to deal with it anymore-i dont feel like it should still be an issue everytime i see her. Anyway so we ended up winning a couple more games of bp then brien and i walked to firestine then i went on to the beta house to go to bed. When i got there i called andrea and told her what was going on and we talked for a really long time until my phone died and i couldnt call her back lol. Which was like 4.30 so i didnt really get a whole lot of sleep. But it was worth it. I...trust her..which im still not sure is a good thing or a bad thing...but i will figure it out eventually i suppose. lol o well..i think im gonna go grab some grub now..so peace out..