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love and pain again
Well today has been better. I seem to be more nervous after waking up I want to change that. Its been good to write all my thoughts and get them out there and leave them where they should be. I am learning not to focus on every thought that comes into my head. I did it just now and chose to ignore it and continue writing and think of what I want to ( Read more... ) -
love and pain continued
I wake up after talking to a friend online last night and felt good for about 20 seconds until I thought of my love again. Why does this person evoke such a bodily and mental reaction. I literally tremble and feel very nervous. I am fine when I take my mind of them and I feel like I have to literally push them out of my mind and consciously focus ( Read more... ) -
Why is love such a pain
Well I have been in love for nearly three weeks now and its like been agony. I have found someone who is such a soul-mate. We have a great online relationship. The problem is that they are basically same sex attracted who hasnt been with men for 12 years who is attracted to me. Its been frustrating talking online nearly every day but not being able ( Read more... ) -
The Curious Case of Benjamin Button
I have just seen the above mentioned film and it was a beautiful story - of course I am a very empathic movie watcher and its its hard to remain unmoved by a story. I am a story lover, I adore stories and this was a simple yet complex life, it was an eloquently told story. I love the way that this is set in history as opposed to the present day or ( Read more... ) -
(Untitled)
I have the song Who are you by The Who going thru my head atm. But not the original version, the shortened version that serves as the theme song/intro for the tv crime show CSI. I love the shortened version ( Read more... ) -
letting go...
I had tried recently to find a book of mine as I wanted to quote from it, as I was writing to a friend whom I discuss religious and spiritual ideas with. I knew I had the book; maybe it was in the garage. Maybe I had lost it in the move to my current home. Maybe I had to buy another one - I was bothered by that cos it meant spending the money all ( Read more... ) -
misunderstandings??
This seems to be such a recurring thing in my life. Thing is we have all been taught to believe what we see and hear right? Well not everything that we see and hear is correct . We can watch a magician perform an illusion but does this mean it is real? Of course not. However if we go around doubting everything we see or hear we will end up in those ( Read more... ) -
recent happenings and a quiet revolution
This a little late but I enjoyed my weekend with the possible exception of my ex's birthday on the Friday nite. That was ruined by some comments and pushing about my sons car and insurance - hardly the stuff of birthday celebrations. But Sat nite was good talking to a fellow who was in a similar situation to me in regards to discovering his ( Read more... ) -
its his life isnt it - no.2
its been a while since I posted. Just found out that my gorgeous klaktu is an lj-er too yay! :-D ( Read more... ) -
Its an 'aha' moment
My ex and I were talking about the recent heat wave that killed her rat. Initially she blamed herself for leaving 'Ray' and going to work and by the time she got home Ray was dead. However on the w/e she went to this animal show at Caulfield and met a lady that sold and kept and bred rats. She was able to show my ex that rats are a very short term ( Read more... )