I'm doing a lot better than I was. That day I wrote that last message wasn't a good day for me at all. But what I wrote is how I felt. I even talked to my mom abit about how I felt. I also had a few people that left a message that didn't leave their names and were calling me a whiner and agreeing with Bergy and honestly I know they were his friends ( Read more... )

I don't know what is wrong with me.. I'm trying to figure it out, but I'm so messed up right now emotionally it's not even funny. I feel like I'm falling into my depression from in the past but in a much different way. I feel really bad because my mom is having issues and it's like I'm following her and I"m stuck in a hole, having to be strong for ( Read more... )

Yep that's for sure.. it's been a really long time since I updated this.. I guess it's cuz I have my other journal as well and pretty much nobody reads this one and anyone that could are just people that can read it in the other place that I have an online journal so it's no big lose heh. Anyway I'm such a different person than I use to be, I'm ( Read more... )

Hey everybody, even though like nobody reads this but it's all good ( Read more... )

Well lookie who it is! It's me! I'm finally using this again.. reason I haven't been using this is my old journal came back and what not and I've been using that:) so yeah.. that's why I've been totally not even updating this one LOL ( Read more... )

Yeah I haven't really updated my LJ but that's because my other online journal is back up and running, so yeah I kinda stopped updating here.. not that anybody reads this anyway besides my baby:) hehe and the other couple people that have this journal also have a journal at that other site too so they can read my entries there so it makes me wonder ( Read more... )

I've been doing so much thinking today, which isn't a good thing because that's when I get all grumpy and depressed about so many things. I think about life and I think about the statement "everything happens for a reason" yeah I truly believe that. But than does that mean our lives are all planned out for us? Is that what it means? I'm so lost ( Read more... )

Yes I'm happy right now but I miss my love. He's not home yet from school. Hope he gets home soon, I just miss him.. miss his voice, oh I love him sooo much. hehe ( Read more... )

Well last night I talked to Kevin and it was so messed up. Guys are so stupid!!! He's been acting like a jerk now because I said he was one.. so he thought well if she thinks that I'll act like one, what point is he trying to prove? Trying to prove me right? HELLO!!! lol that was jsut retarded, also the thing that gets me the most is how he says I ( Read more... )

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