Comments | angelofwater: It just sucks and it's so hard

angelofwater

It just sucks and it's so hard

May 23, 2006 10:58

I don't know what is wrong with me.. I'm trying to figure it out, but I'm so messed up right now emotionally it's not even funny. I feel like I'm falling into my depression from in the past but in a much different way. I feel really bad because my mom is having issues and it's like I'm following her and I"m stuck in a hole, having to be strong for ( Read more... )

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berginyon May 23 2006, 18:27:42 UTC

Really great, you know... Telling me about something, and logging off right after, so I can't even reply. Kinda make me have to read it... Not that I wouldn't have, if you had stayed on. Anyway, You and I could have the same friendship we always had, if you want it. It is there for the taking. I NEVER, but NEVER, not once, ever said that I didn't WANT you as a friend. Just that I didn't need you as a friend... It wasn't that I was trying to say that I don't need you at all... It isn't that at all... it is just.... Something I would rather never say... Ever. Seeing that it can't/won't ever happen, it doesn't matter that I thought that I needed you as more than a friend... As a confidante, as... a closer friend than we were while we were together. But, none of that matters to you... Coz you missed it entirely... And people say men are blind to sublety of actions, and speach.

Oh well. Catch ya later, Hater.

--Berginyon.

Blah blah blah... berginyon May 23 2006, 18:39:53 UTC

Oh, by the way... The way you are feeling... sinking into depression, and having no one to talk to besides AJ and one friend... is almost exactly how I felt through most of our relationship.... Coz you kept "hating" all my friends.

--Berginyon.

Re: Blah blah blah... angelofwater May 23 2006, 18:49:27 UTC

It is not the same at all and it is not only one friend, dont' even tell me what is the same and all that crap because you don't know anything. I didn't hate all your friends, I didn't like 2 of them THAT"S IT. Get it right. Also I signed out because I don't stay on aim so I told you and signed out. YOu didn't have to read it and you don't have to read anything, I just thought you might want to know but you are too stupid anyway. So forget James, as much as I want our friendship back, I doubt it will ever be that way, not with your additude, and your stupid remarks and the shitty things you always say to me. I did get your whole you don't need me thing, but you know what, as much as you kept saying you don't need me as a friend, you never ONCE said in that conversation that you wanted me as a friend. Not once, yeah I said it and asked if that's what you meant but you never said it yourself, I had to say it. Also I don't mind just talking to AJ and Dave, or even just AJ, it doesn't bother me, it's just he isn't on right now that is my ( ... )

Re: Blah blah blah... berginyon May 24 2006, 08:56:01 UTC

Very interesting point of view. You see, I did understand. I do understand. But, What I was trying to say, was I didn't want to talk to my friends, because I didn't want you to have a nagative reaction for any of them... And for that, I pushed them away. Attitude? No, No attitude. I just wanted to make sure you had some idea of what it was like for me. You see, I didn't have anyone to talk to when I wanted to talk to someone other than you. So I talked to you. Not that I had a problem, but a lot of things, I like having another point of veiw, something I couldn't already see myself. People can do that for others. And you know what, I don't care if you think that all I think about is myself, I could care less if you hate me for how you veiw my actions. COULD. But don't. Coz I do care. And women always say that it is men that are blind. Typical male... I am beginning to wonder if that isn't a phrase that some woman started somewhere just to get men to change. Just use that phrase and any guy will be pleading to change his evil ways. To ( ... )