It just sucks and it's so hard

[angelofwater]

I don't know what is wrong with me.. I'm trying to figure it out, but I'm so messed up right now emotionally it's not even funny. I feel like I'm falling into my depression from in the past but in a much different way. I feel really bad because my mom is having issues and it's like I'm following her and I"m stuck in a hole, having to be strong for

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Re: Blah blah blah...

[berginyon]

Very interesting point of view. You see, I did understand. I do understand. But, What I was trying to say, was I didn't want to talk to my friends, because I didn't want you to have a nagative reaction for any of them... And for that, I pushed them away. Attitude? No, No attitude. I just wanted to make sure you had some idea of what it was like for me. You see, I didn't have anyone to talk to when I wanted to talk to someone other than you. So I talked to you. Not that I had a problem, but a lot of things, I like having another point of veiw, something I couldn't already see myself. People can do that for others. And you know what, I don't care if you think that all I think about is myself, I could care less if you hate me for how you veiw my actions. COULD. But don't. Coz I do care. And women always say that it is men that are blind. Typical male... I am beginning to wonder if that isn't a phrase that some woman started somewhere just to get men to change. Just use that phrase and any guy will be pleading to change his evil ways. To be different, accepted. I just don't give a damn anymore. I will live my life my way, and I won't have YOU changing me, anymore.

Friends we may remain, if that is what you wish... But you already made it pretty clear as to how you feel about me. So, when you want to, you know where to find me.

--Berginyon.