Life... what's the point? Like really?
I've been doing so much thinking today, which isn't a good thing because that's when I get all grumpy and depressed about so many things. I think about life and I think about the statement "everything happens for a reason" yeah I truly believe that. But than does that mean our lives are all planned out for us? Is that what it means? I'm so lost with that...
If everything happens for a reason.. doesn't that mean it's going to happen anyway... like no matter what we can't change our future because it's already planned out... Those are thoughts going through my head!
I really don't know, it makes a person feel down if that's the case. My boyfriend was telling me that no it's not that way and such but I felt I was gonna write about it anyway. I'm in such a down mood right now. Him and I ended up even fighting but it was literally over NOTHING because it was a big misundertanding, so theres nothing wrong with that. That's not what is getting to me.
Just so many other things are getting to me. I'm just so upset right now and lost and confused and just don't want to live. If life is really planned out for us.. without us knowing.. doesn't that just make it.. not our own? Things always happen to us.. unexplained things then we realize later why it happend.. but but so do we not have our free will of living then? :( *confused*
Oh well Other than this I'd like to say that I love James so much, it doesn't matter what happens I know he'll always be there for me, I know that he loves me, I know that he cares about me and I know he'll put up with me no matter what the hell I say that is all messed up or crazy like. He loves me for me and he said he loves all of me. Which makes me happy, because I really don't know where I'd be without him right now. I think I'd be okay in general but with him around makes it all better because he makes me so happy. I can't stay mad at him for anything and I just want to be with him. As much as I say to somebody that I just don't want to talk to him right now, if he comes online and messages me, of course I message him I just can't help it. I love him so much and I do believe I want to spend the rest of my life with him.
Some people may think that i don't know what I"m talking about because "I said that about Kevin and blah blah blah" Well you people don't know me then and you shouldn't judge me. I know what I know, I don't need your poor judgement or your rude remarks about it. I'm happy and I'm taking that for all it's worth. I love James and I want to be with him, and that's all there is to it!!!!
Awww just the thought of him is putting a smile on my face:D hehe okay well I think I'm just gonna post this now lol
Countdown: 55 days until I finally get to meet my love...
If everything happens for a reason.. doesn't that mean it's going to happen anyway... like no matter what we can't change our future because it's already planned out... Those are thoughts going through my head!
I really don't know, it makes a person feel down if that's the case. My boyfriend was telling me that no it's not that way and such but I felt I was gonna write about it anyway. I'm in such a down mood right now. Him and I ended up even fighting but it was literally over NOTHING because it was a big misundertanding, so theres nothing wrong with that. That's not what is getting to me.
Just so many other things are getting to me. I'm just so upset right now and lost and confused and just don't want to live. If life is really planned out for us.. without us knowing.. doesn't that just make it.. not our own? Things always happen to us.. unexplained things then we realize later why it happend.. but but so do we not have our free will of living then? :( *confused*
Oh well Other than this I'd like to say that I love James so much, it doesn't matter what happens I know he'll always be there for me, I know that he loves me, I know that he cares about me and I know he'll put up with me no matter what the hell I say that is all messed up or crazy like. He loves me for me and he said he loves all of me. Which makes me happy, because I really don't know where I'd be without him right now. I think I'd be okay in general but with him around makes it all better because he makes me so happy. I can't stay mad at him for anything and I just want to be with him. As much as I say to somebody that I just don't want to talk to him right now, if he comes online and messages me, of course I message him I just can't help it. I love him so much and I do believe I want to spend the rest of my life with him.
Some people may think that i don't know what I"m talking about because "I said that about Kevin and blah blah blah" Well you people don't know me then and you shouldn't judge me. I know what I know, I don't need your poor judgement or your rude remarks about it. I'm happy and I'm taking that for all it's worth. I love James and I want to be with him, and that's all there is to it!!!!
Awww just the thought of him is putting a smile on my face:D hehe okay well I think I'm just gonna post this now lol
Countdown: 55 days until I finally get to meet my love...