an interesting realization: i have never been satisfied with anything, nothing is ever enough. i'm overly emotional, over-sated, over-done, over-wrought, over ridiculous in everything. i've always said that i'll know i've found love when i find someone i enjoy being with more than i like being alone. yet here i am, alone in my room, completely ( Read more... )

today was interesting, to say the least. i feel like my life was so boring and slow up until a few days ago and suddenly everything woke up and there's just ness going on everywhere i look. i'm actually so stress-free that i've been thinking about picking up where i left off with my last attempt at writing something worth reading ( Read more... )

so today was a good day, i finished my film, which is more than a relief at this point. after we filmed and dropped everyone off, i went to go see bruno's show which was fantastic, really, an amazing job... and then we both realized that we ate nothing all day and it was like 7 already so we went out to deanna's and then ate and chilled for a few ( Read more... )

somehow everything came together and today actually worked. it was a good day in the end, but now i get why i could never be a director, hahaha ( Read more... )

will anyone be in westchester this Saturday who is interested in being an extra in my final film?!? Call/Email/Post a Comment if yes!! It would save my life!!!

THANKS!!!

is it sad that i'm 20 years old and i still don't know what i want to be when i grow up ( Read more... )

forgot to mention something very funny that danielle said yesterday... we were in the elevator and danielle was wearing the elephant head and there were a lot of people in the elevator with us but nobody mentioned it or acted like anything weird was going on... then we stepped out of the elevator on her floor and she goes "hmm... i guess i was ( Read more... )

today was my first day of filming and i am far too tired to even go into it. it went ok i think, even though i was slightly stressing out... the boys were insane.. mickey mooned brian, then brian pantsed mickey (of course)and then asked if me and kris were "going out" lol but other than that we got a bunch of really hysterical shots of the kids ( Read more... )

these past few days have been interesting. rather than feeling so affected by everything, i feel really cut off from it all. it's like all this chaos is going on around me but i just sort of sit by and watch it and take it ( Read more... )

ugh some days it's just so easy to cry, i'll never fully understand it. nothing really awful happened today, it was generally a good day, so i don't know what my issue is. my mom was so angry with me for leaving my friends alone in my house while i went to pick up the actors today. she doesn't know how to trust people, EVER. and then i started ( Read more... )