got my grades in the mail today from Buff State. somehow I still have a 4.0 ( Read more... )

I did something I shouldn't have done ( Read more... )

I came to a realization. I know what my problem is. well... one of my problems at least. I have too much time on my hands. I have nothing to do, nothing to focus on, nothing to distract me. sure, I have my classes, but they are bullshit and I'm almost done with them. I think too much. I say the wrong things. I make things more complicated. I'm ( Read more... )

I've learned that no matter what happens, or how bad it seems today, life does go on, and it will be better tomorrow ( Read more... )

It was a little easier, though I still had thoughts that I should turn everything around. I stayed strong. I am so grateful that he is not making this harder for me than it has to be. He is better than I expected. It makes me feel bad though. It would be easier for him to have done something terrible or been a total jerk. Then I wouldn't feel so ( Read more... )

I criticize too much ( Read more... )

things about me that are not good ( Read more... )

I FUCKING HATE WHEN HE DOES SHIT LIKE THAT.

we just dont get along

what else is there to say

am I focusing on the wedding to deal with my dad's death?

or and I NOT dealing with my dad's death by focusing on the wedding?

I miss him so much.

*cry*

chris is really into bmx lately since he just rebuilt his bike. he, jimmy and I have been riding alot recently which feels pretty good. actually, it's hurts my tush alot, but getting outside and being active feels good ( Read more... )