my fingernails are shorter than they have been in years. i'd told myself a million times how biting them couldn't make the impatience go away forever but with a million things piling onto each other you hardly realize you're even doing it. i find myself doing it most often in my old worn in cushiony chair i keep in my living room area. i've had ( Read more... )

this past year has certainly been an experience. i've found myself in places i never expected to be and feeling things i never wanted to. the year before was a lot of the same, but i survived that. good for me, yeah? it's a lot less drama then other people have to deal, i understand but it's a lot of stress weighing on my shoulders. add that ( Read more... )

::sighs softly to herself as she gets up from the couch in the living room. drags her feet across the floor until she reaches the door of the bedroom. she pauses for a moment and closes her eyes remember a time going into the bedroom would be a much happier experience. shaking her head, she instead moves past and into the computer room where she ( Read more... )

my ex-girlfriend is so weird :'(

it's golden globe time, and i was there at the nominations today. good time had by all of course. miss match missed the nominated for best comedy, but surprisingly enough i actually got a nomination. i was actually pretty shocked about it. we got absolutely brilliant reviews for the show, but the ratings showed another story all together. it's ( Read more... )

how many times have you watched a movie and sworn that you hated it? watched it and not understood it. not realized what sort of impact it was having on you, until the denouement when everything was tied together and you figured out that everytime you expressed your frustration with the main character(s), it was because you were so completely ( Read more... )

my boyfriend/ex-boyfriend has forgotten i exist, my ex-girlfriend decided to get engaged to someone she never really forgot about while with me, and the biggest thing about my television show is charisma carpenter. not that that is all bad i suppose, just a lot to take in ( Read more... )

my mother called the other day to offer condolensces. condolensces can you believe that? it seems she's heard my show is going to be cancelled from some of her many, or well few friends. it's not true, though. not yet at least in fact we've been told we're getting more episodes. i'm pleased about that, i'm not going to cry if we get cancelled ( Read more... )

what is it that makes people want to be so defiant? that makes them want to give a big fuck you to all the things that are told to you when you're young. why are they facts? why can't they be changed? the sun's the brightest star in the sky? i can shine brighter than the sun. i hate to accept things. i like living in a world where fantasy takes ( Read more... )

f you know me at all you'll know i've got a little fear of the dark. it's not crazy really, i don't have all the lights on at once, and i don't own more lamps that i need. i haven't had a nightlight since i was 8, but sometimes i think it may be needed. i think my biggest problem is walking through a dark house, or into a large open space where ( Read more... )