i woke up this morning and my feet were cold.

[alicia_s]

what is it that makes people want to be so defiant? that makes them want to give a big fuck you to all the things that are told to you when you're young. why are they facts? why can't they be changed? the sun's the brightest star in the sky? i can shine brighter than the sun. i hate to accept things. i like living in a world where fantasy takes control. because some day all those fantasies will be come my reality.

i need the fantasy in my life. Reality is no fun anymore. reality holds heartache and hatred a whole lot of i other things I'd rather not bother myself with. i want the dream. the dream that i can wake up every morning and press my lips to the neck of someone that i want to be with forever. that they're really there and they didn't walk out any so called door. they're really there. they really fucking want me and I'm desired like i used to be. i don't care about the fame. i mean in my personal life. i could give a shit whether or not i'm approached by a fan once a day who tells me how nice i look, and how i've somehow gotten them interested in my show. no, that isn't what it's all about. it just isn't anymore. im older, i'm supposed to be wiser, and i'm still feeling like i've got so much further to go. wearing a white dress and having to wake up at all hours of the night to take care of someone that isn't me. that has to be waiting somewhere. it has to be.

i woke up this morning and my feet were cold. i just want someone to be there to warm them up.