Very rambly and jumpy thoughts ahead /
how many times have you watched a movie and sworn that you hated it? watched it and not understood it. not realized what sort of impact it was having on you, until the denouement when everything was tied together and you figured out that everytime you expressed your frustration with the main character(s), it was because you were so completely wrapped up in their development and desperate to see how they managed things next. you hated watching them kiss and fawn over their partner when in reality you just wanted to be held or talked to the same way the person on the receiving end was.
Shut Up. Just, shut up. You had me at 'Hello'
Renee Zellweger told Tom Cruise in "Jerry Maguire." and he had us too. or at least he had me. i've never been much of a mainstream movie fan, i've tried not to be though i suppose i am a part of one or two of them. i'm not even a huge Tom Cruise junkie. but that scene. how much of himself did he pour into that? desperate to keep that person in his life when he'd done so much wrong. and watching it i kept wanting her to just let him slip away. to say goodnight. say goodbye and mean it. hope that down the road she'd move on to better things. but he wins you over doesn't he? heartfelt speeches do that to you. last minute realizations do that for you. knowing that you might have possible just missed out on the biggest thing in your life.
but sometimes letting them go is for the best.
"Kimmy says if you love someone you say it, you say it right then, out loud. Otherwise the moment just...
Just passes you by.
Passes you by.."
Julia Roberts and Dermot Mulroney, "My Best Friends Wedding" , and she let him go. she fought of course but in the end did what she felt was the right thing. we never really do know if it was. we can only hope she's not unhappy and pining after him forever. she lets go. she had to. things just happen that way sometimes. happiness isn't easy.
maybe i'm completely off base here, and maybe it's just me being a sap, but it's how i feel. movies can speak to you. songs can as well of course. this fame business has it's perks to watchers and listeners. when something speaks to you, there's nothing better.
i was really wrapped up in us even in such a short time. i don't think you ever knew that. i as so interested in watching us develop, and it wasn't only you that finished it but it doesn't make it any less sad. one of those heartbreaking scenes at the end of the movie where you realize it's not going to have the happy ending you envisioned. i was a bit like Renee in "Jerry Maguire" after I suppose. just wishing you'd finally get it. i had wanted her to give up, but she didn't. i guess that i did.
you asked me a question i'm not sure i'm prepared to answer. i can't because i just don't know. happiness is all i ever wanted for you, so i suppose the answer should be obvious. i just have a bit of trouble letting go i guess. i sometimes think of having you here again, more often, and wanting to be here for awhile. sometimes just staying forever, but what's the sense in that? so i'm happy. i'm happy for you and i'm happy things happened at all. i'm not hung up on things, not really. it's over and i accept it. i'm ready to move on. i'm ready to be swept off of my feet again. fuck the world and all that. big things are ahead in the romantic department. i'm not stupid enough to think i'll remain single forever, and there was never a chance you would.
You are really good food, and I am full.
that right there, is a lyric from a song by Ani DiFranco. it's beautiful and heartbreaking and makes decisions that much harder.
looking back, i think i was the food. maybe not so great, but i still wish sometimes you were hungry for a little more. i'm done now. that's it. i'm done with it. good luck.
Shut Up. Just, shut up. You had me at 'Hello'
Renee Zellweger told Tom Cruise in "Jerry Maguire." and he had us too. or at least he had me. i've never been much of a mainstream movie fan, i've tried not to be though i suppose i am a part of one or two of them. i'm not even a huge Tom Cruise junkie. but that scene. how much of himself did he pour into that? desperate to keep that person in his life when he'd done so much wrong. and watching it i kept wanting her to just let him slip away. to say goodnight. say goodbye and mean it. hope that down the road she'd move on to better things. but he wins you over doesn't he? heartfelt speeches do that to you. last minute realizations do that for you. knowing that you might have possible just missed out on the biggest thing in your life.
but sometimes letting them go is for the best.
"Kimmy says if you love someone you say it, you say it right then, out loud. Otherwise the moment just...
Just passes you by.
Passes you by.."
Julia Roberts and Dermot Mulroney, "My Best Friends Wedding" , and she let him go. she fought of course but in the end did what she felt was the right thing. we never really do know if it was. we can only hope she's not unhappy and pining after him forever. she lets go. she had to. things just happen that way sometimes. happiness isn't easy.
maybe i'm completely off base here, and maybe it's just me being a sap, but it's how i feel. movies can speak to you. songs can as well of course. this fame business has it's perks to watchers and listeners. when something speaks to you, there's nothing better.
i was really wrapped up in us even in such a short time. i don't think you ever knew that. i as so interested in watching us develop, and it wasn't only you that finished it but it doesn't make it any less sad. one of those heartbreaking scenes at the end of the movie where you realize it's not going to have the happy ending you envisioned. i was a bit like Renee in "Jerry Maguire" after I suppose. just wishing you'd finally get it. i had wanted her to give up, but she didn't. i guess that i did.
you asked me a question i'm not sure i'm prepared to answer. i can't because i just don't know. happiness is all i ever wanted for you, so i suppose the answer should be obvious. i just have a bit of trouble letting go i guess. i sometimes think of having you here again, more often, and wanting to be here for awhile. sometimes just staying forever, but what's the sense in that? so i'm happy. i'm happy for you and i'm happy things happened at all. i'm not hung up on things, not really. it's over and i accept it. i'm ready to move on. i'm ready to be swept off of my feet again. fuck the world and all that. big things are ahead in the romantic department. i'm not stupid enough to think i'll remain single forever, and there was never a chance you would.
You are really good food, and I am full.
that right there, is a lyric from a song by Ani DiFranco. it's beautiful and heartbreaking and makes decisions that much harder.
looking back, i think i was the food. maybe not so great, but i still wish sometimes you were hungry for a little more. i'm done now. that's it. i'm done with it. good luck.