i'm back!! (and still alive i might add ( Read more... )

wow the past few days have been crazy! and now i'm about to be shiped off for 5 days of hell in the wilderness. i'm exausted beyond belief. i nearly passed out like 5 times today. but other then that i'm just dandy. :)

i wish i could be the one to make you smile when you're feeling down.

omg. i have older brothers. 5 of them. i've only met three. wow. the in-laws weren't as bad as i thought they would be, they were actuly pretty interesting. my new brother in-laws are all relly funny and nice, one even was a card dealer for a casino and said he would show me a few things... yay. this is all kinda fun but i relly wish we could just ( Read more... )

when do I get to be right for once?

today was a fucking horible day. i spent the day being insulted and made feel embaraced/bad/stupid/selfish/_________(fill in the blank with a bad feeling) for everything i did. my actions, thoughts, everything i did was wrong today. things i did compleatly inocently were warped into something else and now i have that awkward, flusterd, really icky ( Read more... )

yeah so guess what?? i'm on house arest. i didn't comit ne crime, i havn't done ne thing bad. but my mother feels that that by simplifying my life and whereabouts to my room and the kitchen, it will some how simplify hers too. well she's wrong. and she's making me misarable. gah! i'm not even alowed to go to solano (which is two blocks away) for ( Read more... )

wait a second.... when did this happen? when did you grow up? when did you grow out your hair, stop whareing black and take out your peircings? i don't know this you. i'm sure she's nice but i want the old one too.. i've held on to this old image of you for so long that now i don't know what to do...i'm confused. how do i act around you now? do i ( Read more... )

too many thoughts to sort through b4 i can actualy write about nething meaningful ( Read more... )

... no that was it...