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today was a fucking horible day. i spent the day being insulted and made feel embaraced/bad/stupid/selfish/_________(fill in the blank with a bad feeling) for everything i did. my actions, thoughts, everything i did was wrong today. things i did compleatly inocently were warped into something else and now i have that awkward, flusterd, really icky feeling that i get when someone bashes me for my feelings. grrr! will people just leav me alone for a little?? how about taking care of your own shit before trying to judge me on mine?? my life is not here to entertain you. while you may watch from the sidelines, it's real for me. and your actions have consaquinces for me that you do not get to watch. you hurt me, and you don't care. you live in a haze swinging your arms aroundd to find your way, not caring what or who might get in your way. i have so much hate in me b/c of you ringt now. just leave me alone....