When one comes to the realization that he is not happy with himself, it is a devastating blow, almost parallelizing in nature. And once you reach that level you also realize that you must cut ties, work on oneself and discover the inner strength and courage to be alone. In order for one to establish a healthy relationship and successfully be in ( Read more... )

Can't sleep...It seems I've struggled with this pathetic case of insomnia since I first came to school. But as I think back, in actuality this increasingly inability to sleep has plagued me for a while and stems back to way before school. It all surrounds the insanely pathetic, juvenile fear that I've harbored since the tender age of 5...That I am ( Read more... )

Why do some people feel the need to voice their opinions about moral values and relationship advice to people who obviously do not want to hear their useless banter...Recently I met someone who i decided to date but have since then felt the backlash from certain people regarding my new boyfriend's age and i guess grade in school. He is 17 and a ( Read more... )

After an alcohol soaked weekend filled with warm weather,good food (amazing actually), fucking otters in the lake(inside story) and quality time with friends that I'll be leaving in a few weeks, gave me the realization that this is the happiest I've been in a long time. For me, happiness was something that I myself believed was not worthy of and ( Read more... )

You ever wake up one day and finally realize that everything you've been worried about and concerned yourself with before, never really mattered in the first place? I've surrounded myself with this issue of "love" and relationships when in actuality none of it mattered now, and possibly may not ever have mattered. I let this cloud of possibilities ( Read more... )

"Oh What a tangled web we weave when first we practice to deceive"-- William Shakespeare ( Read more... )

Happy Late Easter everyone!! I hope everyone enjoyed their holidays and time with their families, because i surprisingly did. Well now onto the good stuff lol I decided it would be a good idea to come back to school yesterday and have a few drinks with the girls down the hall before they went to some party later on. Well one drink went to two and ( Read more... )

Well the extern in the city looks to have fallen through but I'm an optimist, so I do what any other bitter optimist would do when they don't get their way...SAY FUCK IT and look to the other side of the country for opportunities :-) hahaha so currently I am searching for jobs in San Fransisco. Hopefully I get one out there and then hopefully i ( Read more... )

I have decided to take this weekend off...Off from everything, from school, from externship search, from people, and mostly from drama....in other word a weekend off from my life up to this point. I just need to be around a calm enviorment without all the bullshit. So hopefully this will be a nice quiet relaxing retreat away from it all. I already ( Read more... )

I have come to believe dreams are a very significant phenomenal that most people disregard as mere actions of an overactive mind, but I believe they mean so much more. Most nights I have a few dreams and usually forget them but last night however I had a strange dream that has left an insurmountable impression on me.
"It took place with me living ( Read more... )