wow, it has been so incredibly long since i have visited this page and wrote about the different aspects of my life. This journal was an poignant tool in the successful completion of my "jail" term on fire island and provided some sanity in a place seemingly lose to chaos. This journal has helped me coup with the mind numbing reality that sometimes ( Read more... )

How far do you have fall before you realize that you have no where else to go…I have been to the bottom and experienced more in life than most will in their whole entire being. I have triumphed through obstacles that others cannot even imagine and still I stand before you whole and stable. I may be a little broken and battered but that is how life ( Read more... )

The pain of knowing that the love between two people isn’t enough is probably the single most heartbreaking realizations one can endure in a lifetime. It would be easy to live in the shrouded world of a Nicholas Sparks novel pretending that someday love will be enough to cure any malady associated with your heart but unfortunately the façade ( Read more... )

My heart is broken.....It was inevitable...I loved both of them but the truth of the matter is that i could never successfully be with neither..I want to be loved..and I cant seem to find that. I find people who like me and wanna be with me but I have no feelings for them, and i refuse to pretend to be interested. Then i get people and fall in love ( Read more... )

I have decided to give up on Kyle...It has been something that has become an increasingly important decision to make as I have finally opened my eyes to the truth...That we are not on the same page and a relationship looks more impossible as the days pass. In the idealistic world of fairy tale love we are perfect for each other, but as we all know ( Read more... )

“Can you call back that moment on a day is September when we first shared this secret and everything changed ( Read more... )

Maroon 5's latest album is like sex...I love it...I highly recommend it!! And thank god i leave monday for fire island..Yahh

The insanity of what has happened in the past three weeks with my mother exceeds words or any other comprehensive form of communication one can use to relay the pain that has been inflicted upon me. One can only take so much of something before they explode and have to escape from whatever has been haunting them. My personal haunting has been ( Read more... )

Self exile and isolation are tools of a maurder, most commonly used for the achievement of pity and a gain of self worth. However in some cases, the outcome for the use of these seemingly tradgically flawed tools can be worth more than ever forseen...In my stay at home I have unconcously shut myself away from everything resulting in something ( Read more... )

Thomas Wolfe once said you can't go home again. And it wasnt until my return home that i realized that these words cannot be spoken more true to me today than when I heard them years ago in the preview for some movie. I came to the realization while being screamed at by my mother, under accusations of losing touch with the boy she use to know. And ( Read more... )