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You ever wake up one day and finally realize that everything you've been worried about and concerned yourself with before, never really mattered in the first place? I've surrounded myself with this issue of "love" and relationships when in actuality none of it mattered now, and possibly may not ever have mattered. I let this cloud of possibilities, hope, and disappointment consume me, disengaging myself and my common sense, only adding to the hurt i was already feeling. I allowed my life to be run by these two people who have gone to different states, trying to stay true to some inclination of a relationship we once had but now has seemingly disappeared. Too long I have relied on empty promises and distant maybes, hoping for the best but still preparing for the worst..Some might ask what happened, did I get into a fight with one of them and am venting?..well the answer is no, i have not...I have merely woken up..I have opened my eyes to reality and finally stepped into the real world. I have realized I cannot wait for something that cannot be promised to me, and refuse to waste time in hopes for something that may never come.
I have gotten an externship on Fire Island, Long Island and am leaving everything behind. Its time to start fresh and to go back to the mantra I lived by for so long.."Live you're life for the one person that truly matters.....You"...
If I come back and something happens and things go back to the way they were before and a relationship can ensue from one of them..GREAT...but if not, then oh well..It was great while it lasted. You can only fuck with my head, and heart for so long until I'm not so mice anymore, and for them two, Games over! Times Up! You Lose...Not ME!
Night..
I have gotten an externship on Fire Island, Long Island and am leaving everything behind. Its time to start fresh and to go back to the mantra I lived by for so long.."Live you're life for the one person that truly matters.....You"...
If I come back and something happens and things go back to the way they were before and a relationship can ensue from one of them..GREAT...but if not, then oh well..It was great while it lasted. You can only fuck with my head, and heart for so long until I'm not so mice anymore, and for them two, Games over! Times Up! You Lose...Not ME!
Night..