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i'm healthier, mostly. and that's okay.
i did not do well transitioning back to long island after living in buffalo(and fredonia) for four years. my transition upstate was remarkably easier and this surprises me still. when i came home i left a life behind me. all of my closest friends were suddenly dispersed around the country, something i was not completely unfamiliar with, yet it was ( Read more... ) -
well, i guess there's that.
"you are so willing and ready to go to war for anyone; anyone but yourself"
"can you tell me the difference between being needed and being loved?"
"maybe he isn't different, maybe you are able to be different around him."
"porous, perhaps thats the word im thinking of. absorbing in everyones everything. taking it in and holding on tight for them"
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some thoughts. i've been having a few.
so, i'm reading this autobiography of an alcoholic woman. its a great read. i'm reading it for class. the striking thing being that i have never wanted or felt the urge to get plastered more so than when i'm reading this book. i crave it. so naturally i'm convinced i'm an alcoholic ( Read more... ) -
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viva la revolution!
(i'll admit it if you do)(no, i won't)
my room is a MESS.
if i ever have children, as soon as they can walk, i'm teaching them how to do the laundry.
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catharsis
i write several people letters every day. then i throw them away. it is very efficient. -
guilt and speedometers
i did NOT like that rush of familiar panic. i finished with that two years ago. i'm not doing it again, for anyone else. i am much stronger now. -
two posts in two days???
i'm having this one teeeny tiny itsy bitsy issue with something. its small. its hysterical. but def an issue. and the only person in literally the whole world who will understand what i'm feeling right now, is the only person in the whole world i cannot speak to. harsh. -
maybe this will help.
i just wish that when you looked at me instead of seeing the old cuts you've made, you instead saw the new wounds you have helped heal ( Read more... ) -
the feeling in my gut isn't exactly cuddly
as a mental health project in patterns or life themes i made a list and short description of all relationships i consider significant in my life. not family or friends, more along the lines of romantic relationships, whatever that means. i've so far come up with two strong themes ( Read more... ) -
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its been a god awful week, and i really just needed some to reach out to. No, i needed someone to reach out to me. It didn't work how i wished it did. No longer will i set out to do that for you.