I can't find my own words. These are making due.

"The quiet can scrape
all the calm from your bones,
but maybe it should.
Maybe we need to be hollowed
to get up and grow,
and stop fucking around,
to kick off our braces and start straightening out.
Let's sift through the static
to find a simpler sound
Let's sift through the static
to find a simpler sound...
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in a life filled with "HAVE to" and "NEED to" my only resolution is to do one thing every day i WANT to do.

i love the smell of smoke in my jeans.

even though i hate him, i've always really loved adam lazzara's voice ( Read more... )

I DON'T KNOW WHAT I WANT.

 you know what? I'm mad. Not really upset, not really. Hurt for sure. But honestly, I'm really mad. 
I am so tired of being the only one in the world who seemingly thinks of people other than myself. I then end up being completely shit on for living outside my own world and caring about the thoughts and feelings of others. Not to mention friendships ( Read more... )

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 i am really fucking miserable lately.
and i'm just stuck in it.
because i hate it, and it hurts, so badly, but i'm not ready to fix it. 

 two whole secrets, all for me. who'd have thunk it?
it's exhilarating...what have i been missing!

 I first saw you at the video exchange 
I know my heart and it will never change

This temp work would be alright if you'd call me 
call me

I lay awake at night for you

We'd cross the deepest oceans 
Cargo across the sea 
And if you don't believe me 
Just put your hands on me 
And all the constellations
Shine down for us to see 
And if you don't believe me 
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