maybe this will help.
i just wish that when you looked at me instead of seeing the old cuts you've made, you instead saw the new wounds you have helped heal.
i absolutely agonize over the curiosity- wondering if i've ever been told something you've never told anyone else. and i deny the most basic and obvious thing that must glare out from my constantly blushed cheeks. if i wasn't so fixated on eye contact i could hide behind my overly made-up lashes. but thats part of my whole charade isn't it; that brazen conviction? charade isn't the right word. i believe in what i'm saying. i mean every word. every single word. i believe in what i'm saying, but i know that doesn't mean other people believe in what i'm saying. that troubles me. i want to be convincing. really, all i want is to move you. you specifically. the others, they will come in time. it wasn't supposed to be this way. how did i not see this coming?
....i did see this coming. i'm still pretty sure i can balance it. i just keep opening my arms to that speeding train. keep smiling right into the storm clouds. its worth it.
i absolutely agonize over the curiosity- wondering if i've ever been told something you've never told anyone else. and i deny the most basic and obvious thing that must glare out from my constantly blushed cheeks. if i wasn't so fixated on eye contact i could hide behind my overly made-up lashes. but thats part of my whole charade isn't it; that brazen conviction? charade isn't the right word. i believe in what i'm saying. i mean every word. every single word. i believe in what i'm saying, but i know that doesn't mean other people believe in what i'm saying. that troubles me. i want to be convincing. really, all i want is to move you. you specifically. the others, they will come in time. it wasn't supposed to be this way. how did i not see this coming?
....i did see this coming. i'm still pretty sure i can balance it. i just keep opening my arms to that speeding train. keep smiling right into the storm clouds. its worth it.