I wish I even knew what to put in here. How I quit two perfectly good jobs then worked retail all Christmas. What a fall from engineering grace. Now facing unemployment again how I sleep all day even after my husband thinks he woke me up. I could post how I'm fairly certain im depressed seeing as how I now sit on the couch and play stupid iPad ( Read more... )

I'm thinking of starting a new written journal. I haven't attempted that in about a year, but maybe it is time again ( Read more... )

Doing this wedding stuff is gonna drive a nail in this relationship.... All I got is stress and frustration and all we have done is fight about stupid things....

It's TIRING... And expensive... Why did I want a big wedding again?

I feel like I'm in a constant state of repeating days over and over again. After Friday My stomach has just felt meh. I'm frustrated with facebook and people screaming gun control, I'm frustrated with news sites talking incessantly about it (I had to scroll through 3 pages of Yahoo news articles ot get to something other than Friday's news), I'm ( Read more... )

I tried to reconnect with an ex-boyfriend this past weekend whom i hadn't talked to in over three years. I found it odd we fell out of touch. It started out alright, but quickly degraded into just meh. I didn't have many issues but I felt like I was attacked the entire conversation. We are different yes, but I thought maybe we would been able ( Read more... )

There use to be a community on here... Back in High School and much of College. Granted I didn't have this username. So no one really knows I exist as this person. My userpics are all three years old. I wanted to Journal again... but most of them come out as rants and whining. I wanted the community, but I'm fooling myself if I think anyone is ( Read more... )

Some days I wonder why i stick around... My depression has hit all time lows... only now I don't cry anymore... I just wander around with a blank stare into nowhere. I need to really lose weight.. it isn't happening.. I need to start the gym again... it isn't happening.. I need to get the house clean... it isn't happening.. I just need to do ( Read more... )

Ryan and I have been having some interesting issues in our relationship... Maybe it's just me... Maybe I'm insane. We talked the other night into the late hours past our bedtimes where I basically was telling him my inside has gone hollow. I love the guy, but lately our relationship has hit this barrier. I feel stuck... I feel empty... I don't ( Read more... )

What happened to my life? LJ use to be a great place.... I trust it here more than facebook that's for sure... I just can't go back to Dalralmi... everyone over there doesn't even know I exist over here... I just wish I had closer friends... like High School... people to talk to... people I WANT to visit... People to call when I can't sleep ( Read more... )

I really don't have much to update on. I'm disappointed in my ability to keep going to the gym regularly and eat healthy. I suck at doing that. Right now I'm going once a week and semi trying ot exercise portion control with a TON of failing. the pool is open now and I keep meaning to go but the act of having to put on sunscreen really bugs me ( Read more... )