Evolution. That's really the story of my life lately. It's interesting. For now I feel like I have something to offer the world. That could be fleeting, I'm anxious to find out. Been trying to relax lately and I just can't seem to. Been thinking about some regular therapy again. I had a pretty scary experience the other morning and got way too ( Read more... )

Weird, I thought I'd forgotten how to do it. Guess not. That was pretty fucking spectacular. I'm happy but not stupid. It has to be done, it was stupid to think it ever could have worked right? I'm just trying to be smart about things, but I'm a body divided to be sure. Right now, I'm enjoying my mini vacation with tons of fun, fireworks, and hot ( Read more... )

I'm learning a lot about myself this week. I scared to death and I want to keep it all to myself. Want is the wrong word, but it feels like the right thing to do. (Diet) Comic Con this weekend, but I'm excited for some butterflies and youthful excitement. New love is so fucking exciting.

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Nothing quite like having this really neat new toy and feeling like you can;t shre it with anyone. Kind of like when you steal something really awesome, you can't very well go touting it all around town. That's kind of my head space right now. Just trying to imagine how this could affect my life, and how fucking cool it really it. Also trying to ( Read more... )

I can just look at it and think "Jeez, I'm in trouble.". I'm in over my head on this one, but I have faith I will make it through. In some other weird paradox I have created an environment where friendcest is totally acceptable and it is biting me in the ASS hardcore. I am trying to balance it all out in my brain and make the math work out to where ( Read more... )

What a fantastic fucking evening. We celebrated Shell tonight and will continue to do so for the remainder of the weekend. I have lots of fun and friends planned for the weekend. Tonight was dinner with Ash, Jimmy and the wifey, and Erik and Ann Marie. Not for nothing, if I had known then what I know now I would have probably married Erik when I ( Read more... )

There really can be no other word. I feel like everything is less about drama and perception and hidden meanings lately. FUCKING STELLAR change of pace there. I did not realize how much drama I actually had control over and could cut out of my life. However, having made those changes I feel better and its great. Also having made a personal decision ( Read more... )

Ahhh... what an amazing fucking weekend. Seriously, I need more weekend like this one. Shell and I had a fantastic Friday night complete with dinner and shopping and video games, it was lovely. I can skim over the migraine part of the evening because it happened at the end of the night and I was able to take some good meds and sleep it off. ( Read more... )

Who called this morning...Scott. Of course he did. Like a goddamned lighthouse in Maine fog. God speaks. I listen. Fine. I surrender.

I'm pretty convinced that the world really needs to give me and my friends one of those social commentary shows. Like me and Ashley and Annika, Shell and Jessica all sitting around in our fucking cardigans drinking coffee, ignoring our children and being totally real about life.Fuck the View, I feel like the world needs to see that. I feel so good ( Read more... )