Nothing quite like having this really neat new toy and feeling like you can;t shre it with anyone. Kind of like when you steal something really awesome, you can't very well go touting it all around town. That's kind of my head space right now. Just trying to imagine how this could affect my life, and how fucking cool it really it. Also trying to ( Read more... )

Ahhhhhggghh. Yesterday turned out even more fantastically than I planned it. I didn't hate Ben's new girlfriend which was pretty fucking major for me. I've done the math, and I think by the end of this weekend we will have spent time with almost ALL of our closest (shared) friends. I worked really hard to make sure that Shell has the best birthday ( Read more... )

Its all about the simple right now, the mundane, the totally unremarkable...and I am good with it. I have made peace with a lot of things in my life over the last few weeks and it feels weird. Without all of the drama and games and bullshit I am taking a hard look at my life. I have a lot more time to focus on things and to waste said time would be ( Read more... )

Tired of being angry or sad all the time in the last few weeks. I wish I was the kind of person who could just give up on people and cut them out of my life entirely but for some reason I still want to believe that there is good in everyone. I like to think that everyone has that innate desire to do the right thing in them, when I'm probably wrong ( Read more... )

Just taking a step back from things this week has been supremely helpful to my stressed-out-ness. I am starting to get comfortable in my discomfort and realizing that it really is a short term situation and I am glad for that. I worked something like a 14 hour shift yesterday with combination work and meetings and that sucked, but I did manage to ( Read more... )