Ahhhhhggghh. Yesterday turned out even more fantastically than I planned it. I didn't hate Ben's new girlfriend which was pretty fucking major for me. I've done the math, and I think by the end of this weekend we will have spent time with almost ALL of our closest (shared) friends. I worked really hard to make sure that Shell has the best birthday ( Read more... )

There really can be no other word. I feel like everything is less about drama and perception and hidden meanings lately. FUCKING STELLAR change of pace there. I did not realize how much drama I actually had control over and could cut out of my life. However, having made those changes I feel better and its great. Also having made a personal decision ( Read more... )

I have really been enjoying my space lately. There has been so very much to go around. I am not quiet done, but as December draws to a close, I know that at least a part of that space will be gone again. Dawn and Amaya will be coming back to the house and once again I will feel like a prisoner within my own space. I know they are family and I ( Read more... )

So I started off my evening angry. Lots and lots of angry. Not active angry, but more passive angry because I was really just processing through a situation I was angry about. I feel vindicated because as much as someone can really understand I feel like I was understood, and for ONCE...just fucking ONCE...in this particular situation someone was ( Read more... )

...just what we go through for one of these shows ( Read more... )

Enough time has passed and enough people have passed on that once again this can be a safe place. Once again I have an outlet for my anger and joy and overall thoughts about my own existence. I hope one day...in the very distant future...if this place still exists that someone pulls this up and prints it out for Genesis. So that she can see that ( Read more... )